Behind closed doors....
“Yo Josh get up!” Billy said as he walked into Josh and Yeva’s room. Josh was 20 minutes late for his interview.
“Huh....wha?” Josh said as Billy opened the shades, he was tired he didn’t want to wake up. Josh Horn was 22 years old and unemployed. He lived in an apartment with his wife Yeva and his roommate Billy. It was just a small little apartment, 2 bedrooms, 1 bathroom, a kitchen, and a living room, and that was it. Josh wanted to be a writer, for he loved plays, but that didn’t put food on the table.
“Get up your late for your interview!” Billy said as he went over and shook Josh awake. Just then Yeva walked in.
“Why aren’t you up? Josh you need that job!” She said very angrily, Yeva was a pretty 21 year old girl who wanted to be a beautician, but couldn’t afford to go to school and had to work a night job as a waitress at a popular club nearby, it was 8AM and she’d just gotten out of the shower, she’d only been home a half hour. She was black and had dyed blonde hair and big brown eyes and a nice figure. She looked very tired and was in a night shirt.
“I’m up I’m up! Jesus Christ!” Josh said angrily as he sat up and rubbed his eyes.
“Josh this is the only interview you’ve had in a month, we need money badly!” Yeva said, she was tired and very upset with him. Money was tight, Billy and her paid the rent while Josh just stayed home working on one of his ‘plays.’
“Well I’m sorry okay? I’ll go to the next one!” Josh said laying back down, he was depressed and didn’t feel like dealing with this.
“Well until then I’m unplugging the internet, and no more vocal lessons for you!” Yeva said, Josh had been taking vocal lessons because he enjoyed singing, and thought it would help if he ever wanted to make it to broad way as an actor or writer.
“No! Yeva you can’t do that to me.” Josh protested, he and Yeva had only been married 2 years but they’d always had money troubles.
“Yeah well I’m sorry you can’t have your dream, I can’t have mine well @#%$ yours!” Yeva said as she laid down away from Josh. Billy had left the room.
“Why are you being such a bitch?” Josh asked, he was very upset about her decisions.
“I’m being a bitch? You’re the bitch if anything! You know maybe we should just divorce then I could go live with Quandisha (Yeva’s sister)! Then I could go to beauty school and live in a nice house and not have to use foodstamps!” Yeva said near tears now. Josh sat for a moment and calmed himself down and then he rolled over and hugged Yeva and said,
“Honey listen it will get better I promise...okay? I’ll go look for a job tonight okay?” Josh said as he kissed her cheek, Yeva just ignored him and pretended to be asleep.
Josh was upset but this and got up and showered then left to do good on his word. At 5pm Yeva woke up and realized billy and Josh were both gone. She had the night off and decided she was going to go out and forget her troubles. She spent the literal 4 hours getting ready. Josh had called and said he was staying the night at someone’s house because their was something in the works and he didn’t want to say tell it was official. Yeva didn’t care she was really upset with him! Billy was at his girlfriend’s house so she knew he wouldn’t be back that night either.
Yeva put on tight hip hugger jeans and a white halter top. She did her hair in braids and put on some make up. She put on her high black go go boots and got a black hand bag and left at 9pm.
She went to a few clubs and danced but was still upset about her whole situation. Then she drove to a club she had never been to about an hour away. She danced for awhile and then when she sat down at the bar. Just then a blonde man with blue eyes about her age came and sat by her.
“Hey beautiful why do you look so down?” asked the man.
“Oh me and umm...well I’m just not having the greatest time.” Yeva said a little depressed.
“Ah that’s sad wanna come back to my place? I could make you feel better!” said the stranger teasingly.
“I don’t even know your name.” said Yeva innocently.
“Oh I’m Patrick King, what’s your name?” said the man now identified as Patrick.
“I’m Yeva, Yeva Horn.” Yeva said as she shook his hand, he took her hand and kissed it.
“Well you think we could go back to my place? I lost my girlfriend a few days ago and I need some fun in my life.” Patrick said with a smile.
“Alright....what the hell lets go!” Yeva said, she didn’t know why she was doing this, but the stranger was really attractive to her. Besides Josh would never know....right?
That seemed to make Patrick happy, the two got up and left for Patrick’s house, he apparently shared with someone else who wasn’t there right now. It was a huge house, and Yeva believed he was rich, the house looked familiar, but she couldn’t remember from where.
The two got into what was apparently his bedroom and started going at it very hungrily. ‘Whoa’ Yeva thought, ‘Josh has never kissed me like that.’ Due to Yeva’s hard work and Josh’s lack there of, they didn’t have sex much, let alone anything else! Patrick seemed to be enjoying his new girl also.
The two ended up in the bed and went for a few hours. After it was over Yeva felt like maybe it had all been a dream, she had enjoyed it so much and hadn’t given a second thought to her no good husband.
“Will you stay tonight?” Patrick asked with a kiss, he had really enjoyed her as well.
“Oh umm...I can’t. In fact I better be leaving.” Yeva said realizing what she had done and that it was almost 4 in the morning. This kind of hurt Patrick.
“Why not? Don’t you like to cuddle?” Patrick asked looking for a reasonable explanation.
“No I just...I got to go alright?” Yeva said as she zipped her pants up. Patrick was just watching her sadly and said, “Fine I understand....go.” and he rolled over. He had really liked this girl, he wanted her for more then a night, and he felt very used.
Yeva just finished collecting her stuff and left, she felt dirty now, like she had done something like a murder! She loved Josh deep down, and she’d hate to see his face if he ever knew what she had just done.
Yeva got home and showered 3 times over and she still felt like there was something on her Josh would see. The next morning she was awakened to a very passionate kiss about 3pm.
“Why you sleeping so late?” damn it was Josh she thought. She had just finished a dream of her and Patrick and she had really wanted it to be real.
“Oh umm...I just stayed up late.” Yeva said as Josh started kissing her neck.
“What are you doing?” Yeva asked when his kisses didn’t let up.
“I’m celebrating my new huge paying job and it’d be helpful if you responded a little.” Josh said with a huge grin and a laugh.
“You gotta job?” Yeva asked a little surprised as Josh frenched her.
“Mmm yep and it’s a surprise so why don’t we have some fun then we’ll go over there tomorrow at noon and you’ll be very, very, very proud of me.” Josh said as he kept kissing her. Yeva knew once he started he wouldn’t stop so she went along with it. This was the first time they’d slept together in 2 months! Yet his kisses weren’t exciting and she felt bored, where she usually moaned or something she didn’t. Josh noticed half way through.
“What’s wrong? Am I doing something wrong?” he asked concerned.
“No umm I’m still a little tired but its good your good, I’m fine.” Yeva lied quickly. Josh bought it and they finished up. Yeva felt so bored she almost forgot to moan! But she remembered quickly and pretended....wow he wasn’t really exciting at this was he? Was all she could think...
As they cuddled Yeva remembered the job.
“So what job did you get?” Yeva asked curiously, she had to think of something to say so he wouldn’t notice how bored she had been.
“Oh baby your going to be so proud of me! I want it to be a surprise though, you’ll know tomorrow. But it pays well, really well, I’ll be able to get us a big mansion!” Josh said excitedly, the mansion reminded her of the posh house of Patrick.
Yeva just kinda gave up and fell asleep again. That night passed and Josh was just beaming and wouldn’t shut up about how excited he was.
The next day Josh surprised Yeva with a new low cut skirt and a really nice shirt. Yeva wondered how he could afford it but she went along with it. She looked really good, it showed off all her right features. As they drove to Josh’s new jobs place, he was oddly silent. It was apparent he was very nervous and excited.
Josh took her into a lobby of something called “Transcon offices.” There he said,
“Baby listen I’ll tell you now, yesterday at my vocal lesson my coach asked if I would like to sing for a living, and I said yes. Then she asked if I would like to sing in a group and I said sure. Then she told me this band called Natural was looking for another member and they were signed to Transcon Records already, and yesterday I met the guys and I auditioned and they signed me!” Josh said very excited and proud. Yeva couldn’t believe it.
“Oh Josh that’s wonderful!” she said as she hugged and kissed him.
“Yep. Here come in here I’ll introduce you to everyone.” Josh said as they walked into a ‘restricted access area.’ Inside was 3 guys sitting at a table.
“Okay honey this is Ben, Michael, Marc, and...hey where’s Peep?” Josh said as he showed each guy to Yeva.
“Oh Pat had to go to the bathroom he’s been crying all day because someone broke his heart or something....he’ll be back.” Marc said matter of factly.
“So what’s your name?” Ben asked Yeva.
“Oh I’m Yeva, Yeva Jenny Horn.” Yeva said shyly as she shook his hand.
“Hey lets go start practicing, Lou wants to know how we’ll sound with you, Yeva you’ll have to wait in this area but when Peep comes back tell him we’re in there.” Marc said as he pointed through a window into the recording studio.
“Sure okay.” Yeva said as Josh gave her a kiss and the guys went off. Not but a few minutes later the man she had met the night before, Patrick, walked in and froze when he seen her.
“What the hell are you doing here?” They both yelled at the same time pointing at the other one.
“I’m here to watch my hu...husband in his new band.” Yeva said very proudly. She didn’t want him to know why she had left the night before.
“Oh Christ the new guy is your husband?” Patrick asked very upset. “Well no wonder you didn’t want to stay the night! Ya know what? I’m telling!” Patrick said as he ran for the door, Yeva grabbed him from behind and pulled him down.
“NO! NO! NO! Please don’t it would crush him! Besides...it was a one time thing...” Yeva begged, Patrick was laying on top of her, on his back on her stomach.
“Yeah just a one time thing, I thought it would be more!” Patrick said fighting then getting up.
“What? Why?” Yeva asked confused.
“Because...I’m not that kind of guy....I thought maybe we could go out tonight, but then you left me alone! You can’t believe how bad that hurts a body.” Patrick said bitterly as they stood facing each other. Yeva knew it was a huge risk, but they were where no one could see them and she ran up and frenched Patrick. He was so surprised by this that he did it back, and it felt so right. But he pulled away and said, “Listen 1) your married, I didn’t know that last night and I don’t want to hurt a new friend, and 2)....you can’t play mind games with me like that!”
Yeva was hurt for some reason and then she said, “Listen...its not mind games I’m just really confused. God yesterday morning Josh wanted to have sex and we did, and it was terrible! I missed what I had with you.” Yeva couldn’t believe what she had just said.
Patrick looked really hurt non the less, “Well you divorce your husband and I’ll think about it....you hurt me and now I’m really hurt!” Patrick said as he kissed her closed mouth on the lips. Yeva turned it into a french kiss.
“God I need this.” She said as she held on to him. Patrick didn’t know what to do.
“I got an idea, lets go into that private closet over there and....have ourselves some fun.” Yeva suggested playfully, the threat of getting caught was making her more bold apparently.
“Listen I don’t want to OMG!” Patrick started objecting but she put her hand down his pants and he couldn’t object anymore. Yeva silently led him into the spacious closet and they locked the door turned on the little light and got down to business. It felt so right to both of them. They both had trouble suppressing their moans.
“Mmmm ohh ohh mmm....” Yeva moaned as she heard somebody outside the closet trying to open it.
“Dammit this closet always jams! Well I’ll get the janitor.” she heard what sounded like Ben’s voice.
She held back her moans, because Patrick didn’t stop. She whispered very quietly in his ear “Patrick were caught.”
“Mmm no were not that OHHH mmm janitor is a drunk, he won’t be around for an hour and Ben will stop by then OMG!” Patrick said as they continued on. Right as they were about to go for the big finale Yeva heard Josh’s voice saying “Where is Yeva? And where is Pat?” That scared her, but Patrick made her immediately forget it. “OMG!” Yeva accidently screamed. Thankfully the other guys had left the room. After getting their hormones in check, and straightening up Patrick peeked his head out of the closet and ran like hell, Yeva followed. She ran straight into Josh.
“Hey honey where you been?” Josh asked happy to see her. Yeva freaked, she was hot, sweaty, sure her clothes and hair were a mess, and she was worried their might be a stain or two somewhere.
“I’m not feeling well....I think I have a fever...OMG!” she said pretending to about get sick and ran into the girls bathroom. There she discovered all her fears were right. Her hair was all messed up and she had a stain on her skirt.... Josh hadn’t noticed though, he just thought she didn’t feel well.
When she came out of the bathroom she had straightened herself up and fixed her skirt and hair.
“Honey are you okay?” Josh asked concerned when she came out.
“Yeah yeah I’m ummm...I’m fine.” Yeva lied. She felt bad for what she had done, yet she wanted to see Patrick again.....
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"Hey why don't you go lay down baby on that couch" Josh suggested concerned.
"Yeah...okay." Yeva said wearily, Patrick could do that to a body ;-)!
As Yeva laid in the recording room, she got to thinking. She felt bad for what she had done, but she was beginning to think she liked Patrick. Here she was married to J, and she liked Patrick. All she could keep thinking was memories of the past few encounters with her now new secret lover. Patrick had given her more then Josh ever could, he touched all the right spots at the right times. Not only was he good in bed, but he seemed spiritually attractive to her too. He seemed so sweet and when he touched her it was lovingly, not nervously like Josh. After about an hour or so, Yeva decided she would call a cab, go home, and just rest. She was tired, and kinda needed some time alone so she could sort this whole mess out. When Yeva went into the studio see said, "Josh, I'm not feelin to well. I'm gonna getta cab and go home." She noticed Patrick look up at her longingly but secretly.
"Well, I can get Ben, or Patrick to give me a ride home. You take the car, and I will get a ride" Josh replied to her.
"You sure?" she asked. "Yea, Im positive! Be careful, and I hope you feel better. I'll be home soon." J said as he hugged her, and gave her a kiss goodbye. Patrick didn't like that, but no one noticed.
When Yeva got home, she took a nice LONG hot bath. As Yeva got out of the tub, and got dressed J called. "Hello?" Yeva answered.
"Hey baby, how are you feeling? You feeling any better?" J asked her.
"Oh Im feelin a lil better thank you. How is everything going there?" she asked a little nervously, she had been fantasizing about that cuddling Patrick had wanted.
"It's good. We were all just a lil worried about you, and wanted to make sure you were ok." J replied.
"Well, Im fine. Don't worry about me. You just stay and work. I will be fine." Yeva replied non chalantly.
"Baby you want me to come home?" Josh asked concerned, "Billy's gone to some church singing deal, I could give you a lil lovin to make you feel better." Josh suggested sensuously. Yeva cringed at the thought.
"Umm no in fact ya know what? I've been throwing up a lot I think I might have the flu. Maybe you should stay at one of the guys tonight so you don't it." Yeva suggested.
"Okay I'll stay at Marc's....I love you." Josh said a little reluctantly. Yeva just hung up and got out of the tub.
As she was getting dressed again, the phone rang again. "Yea?" Yeva answered very hesitantly and almost regrettingly thinking it was Josh. The more she thought about it the more she realized how much she didn't love him, she didn't hate him but this wasn't love!
"Hey." The voice answered.
"OMG! Patrick! How did you get my #!" Yeva replied shocked at who was on the other line.
"Im in my car, I told everyone I needed a small break. How are you?" He asked happily at hearing his forbidden lovers voice.
"Im fine. By the way….how did you get this #?" Yeva asked realizing she was talking to Patrick. "Remember…I work with Josh Horn…. your husband. And, you just asked me that…about 10 seconds ago." Patrick said with a light laugh.
"Oh…yea. Ok." She replied remembering and a little upset now.
"Yeva, I want to see you again, and I am glad you pulled me in the closet this afternoon...really glad....but Im honestly not sure if this needs to keep up. I mean, you are married, and I do work with your husband, and well, that could cause BIG trouble Yeva….I like you, and I know you like me. But, Im not sure what to you say?" Patrick said sadly at the situations facts.
"Well....." Yeva thought a second, "Patrick I realize in this short time I think that I don't love Josh like I thought I did, he thinks I'm sick and he's staying the night at Marc's tonight. I'm all alone, would you come over? We don't have to have sex just talk." Yeva suggested in the same tone Josh had used on her earlier.
"Well....what about Josh? Yeva I don't want any trouble." Patrick said a little upset.
"I don't know....could we just be together a little more then sex and then I will know if I am making a big mistake or the best decision of my life." Yeva said thoughtfully.
"Okay...but we will only meet up 3 more times in a months time okay? Then you need to decide, because if you aren't with Josh I'll take you in a heartbeat." Patrick said a little hesitantly but then growing more enthusiastically.
"Okay then come over tonight, for our first meeting." Yeva suggested once again but more excited this time.
"Okay...but only for an hour or two." Patrick said hesitantly.
"Okay see ya...shall we say 8?" Yeva suggested.
"Okay bye." Patrick said as he hung up.
Yeva just smiled as she put the phone back on the hook. She knew what she was doing wasn't good, but she wanted Patrick, and he wanted her.
As the day went on, all Patrick could think of was Yeva. How could he get himself out of this situation, and what was he gonna do. He liked her, but she was Josh's wife, and that wasn't good! He could barely concentrate, and the fact that her husband was in the same room, didn't help matters.
"So, who were you talking to out in your car?" Marc asked Patrick. Marc had seen him on his ‘break.'
"Oh! I was just talking to...Ye." Patrick realized what he almost said. "I was talking to a friend of mine" Patrick was thinking fast.
"Well, whatever it is…please try to forget about them for a lil bit. We need to concentrate, and you in la la land don't help. So, come back to earth!" Ben replied.
"Ok, sorry guys, lets get back to work." Patrick said as he picked up his guitar. For the next couple hours or so, the guys wrote music, and worked on putting their words together. But still, Patrick was having a very hard time concentrating. Every now and then, he would catch himself looking in the back towards where the closet would be, if the wall weren't between them. Memories of that afternoon came back with a vengeance and he would always screw up in the middle of a song when he remembered how Yeva had kissed him somewhere or how she had sounded when she moaned.
"PATRICK!! HELLO!" J yelled at him. "Yea! What! Sorry." Patrick said as he kinda jumped from J's yelling. "DUDE…I asked you to please tune your guitar to fit with the keys and to pay attention! Wake Up!" Josh said a little annoyed, he wanted this band to become big because he wanted to buy Yeva everything she deserved, and he wanted to put her through Beauty School. He loved her so much and alls he could think about was how he wouldn't see her tell he surprised her that night about 8PM. He wanted to tell her his plans and tell her how this time they'd have a real nice wedding, and she'd have everything she ever wanted.
"Ok, sorry man. Let me tune my guitar. Hold on." Patrick replied nervously. He almost broke a string as he nervously fiddled with the keys.
"Man, what are you staring at the wall for? You have been in deep thought for the last 10 minutes. Are you ok? What is wrong?" Michael asked Patrick as he didn't even play through the next song and just looked at the wall.
"Nothing, Im just a lil upset about the other night. Sorry man. Im just not feeling to good. Kinda a bad day. Sorry guys."
"Well dude, if you don't come back to earth, we will ALL have a BAD career…! So, get with the program!" Marc snapped at Patrick.
"Ok, guys, Im cool. Sorry, let's work." Patrick said as he tuned his guitar. Finally after an hour to two hours, the guys were able to get some work accomplished, and Patrick came back to earth long enough to get some work done and the writing session could end, so he could go see his precious Yeva.
Re: Behind closed doors....
Practice finished up soon after and Patrick left quickly. He was so excited and he felt guilty about it, but for some reason that didn’t stop him. He put on his nice ‘ass showing’ jeans and a tight muscle/t shirt and left for Yeva’s a little early. In fact it was an hour and a half early!
On the drive there he was so nervous. He kept thinking about the closet incident and then he started wondering if Yeva was just lonely, and he was bad in bed and she was just using him for some stupid reason or other. He put the fears behind and pulled up to the address she had text messaged him. He knocked on the door nervously and Yeva answered.
She was in a tight pair of hip hugging shorts, and a small little t shirt that showed her curves very well. Her hair was still braided in small little braids but they were pulled back into a big pony tail.
“Hi.” She said with a smile.
“Hi.” Patrick said with a dumbfound look on his face.
“Come in...” Yeva said seductively as she let him in, she’d never acted like this before, what had gotten into her? Patrick entered in shyly and looked around.
“So what you got planned for tonight?” He asked curiously.
“Well I thought we could watch a short movie and talk a lil.” Yeva said still in her sexy tone.
“Okay sure.” Patrick said as he followed her to the couch and they sat down. Yeva was a little embarrassed of her home. The furniture was shabby and second hand because of Josh’s poverty, and it was small and crowded. It was nothing like Patrick’s luxurious mansion. Patrick noticed her uncomfortableness and decided to hold her as they watched the movie. They talked a little and they both noticed that they were continuing off last night, they were cuddling very lovingly and comfortably. Patrick was just holding her and kissing her forehead as they talked small talk. Josh and Yeva hadn’t done this with Josh....ever! After about an hour of this, the movie ended and Yeva and Patrick couldn’t keep their hands off each other. It wasn’t the ‘lusty’ way it had been in the closet, but more like the first night only sweeter. Patrick and Yeva both knew they should stop themselves, but neither could help it! It started innocently enough on the couch but then Patrick picked her up and carried her into the small bedroom that Billy had. They were throwing clothes off like their was no tomorrow and moaning as loud as they pleased. Right as Patrick started going down on Yeva she heard the footsteps in the hallway. “Stop!” she whispered urgently, it was hard not to scream. Patrick took this just to be a plea to tone it down a little, so he did but he didn’t stop.
“Patrick someone’s here.” Yeva whispered very urgently. Patrick got the clue now and jumped out of bed and the two scrambled to put their clothes on and Yeva urged Patrick to go out the patio and leave. Not 2 minutes after she had gotten dressed quickly and straightened Billy’s sheets did Josh walk in with a big bag.
“Yeva baby I’m home.” Josh called as he entered the door. Yeva quickly ran into the bathroom to straighten up a little and make herself look like she had gotten sick not been cheating on her husband in Billy’s bed! She was so turned on though it was hard for her to calm herself down.
Yeva flushed the toilet to make it sound like she’d thrown up in there. “I’m in the bathroom.” she called back.
“Oh baby are you okay...” Josh asked as he ran into the bathroom and picked her up (she’d laid on the floor for effect.)
“No....I got sometin badly!” Yeva said doing her best, praying her wouldn’t know. Oh wait of course he wouldn’t know...he could never get her that sweaty or breathy with his love making! That was a terrible thing to think she thought as he helped her up and on to the couch.
“Baby here I got you some Tylenol.” Josh said as he took the bag he had sat on the little make shift coffee table and opened the bottle and handed some pills and a glass of water to her. They usually couldn’t afford any medicines, and she knew he must have taken the last of what they had to get that for her.
“Thank you.” she said as she took it, she was already regretting her shameful behavior.
“Baby here...” Josh said as he took her in his arms and held her. “Listen life is going to be so so much better for us now! I love you so so so much....I was thinking after I get paid for the first few times and pay off our bills and debts, that maybe we could get a second wedding, a really nice one! You can pick out the most expensive dress and not have to wear your sisters old one.....and it can be in a huge chapel or in Hawaii like you always wanted.....and we can have so many guest and then....a second honeymoon in Italy like you always wanted! Then I’ll have to work a little more to secure some money for us and while I work I can put you through school, and I can study online, and when were done maybe we could have a baby like we wanted to, and we’ll have a mansion and take the best care of our kid....” Josh said dreamily as he held his wife. Yeva noticed how he was loving her up...just like Patrick had done earlier. Yeva didn’t say anything...she felt so guilty.
“I know you might get mad at me...but I did something today...” Josh said as he took some things out of his pocket.
“Here baby.” Josh said as he handed her a piece of paper.
“What’s this?” Yeva asked as she looked at the paper a little confused.
“It’s the beauty school class schedule, I registered you today. And...” Josh said as he sat her up so she was facing him, “I got you this.” Josh said taking out a ring box and opening it. Inside was a huge diamond ring, her wedding ring was made of cubic zirconia, it was all he could afford at the time.
“Oh Josh!” Yeva said in tears, she felt so rotten now his love for her was so pure and she had cheated on him!
“Will you marry me again?” Josh asked with a huge smile on his face as he held out the little box.
“Yes....” Yeva choked out as he put the ring on her finger. The same finger that had been scratching down Patrick’s back 10 minutes ago, the same finger she dialed her phone with to call her forbidden lover. Yeva started crying and Josh kissed her on the cheek.
“Baby what’s wrong?” Josh asked concerned.
“Josh....I have to confess something to you....” Yeva said, she had to come clean.
“What baby doll?” Josh asked. God he was so trusting! Yeva thought sadly to herself.
“Josh I’m not sick....I’m a terrible terrible woman!” Yeva said very ashamed of herself.
“What? Why are you all sweaty and stuff then?” Josh asked confused.
“Josh I....I’ve cheated on you 3 times since 2 nights ago. I....I don’t know why,” Yeva said noticing the hurt look on his face she babbled on, “I....I just met this guy at this club I went to the night you stayed over signing your record deal. I was mad at you and I was a little drunk. Then I met the guy again and we....we had relations again....and he was just here.” Yeva confessed as she broke down into tears.
Josh was just stunned he couldn’t believe it! After staring at the woman he thought he knew he asked very hurtly, “Why Yeva? Why again? What did I do wrong?”
“Josh I....I never intended on doing it again, but when I seen the man again I couldn’t help myself...I feel so confused, I love you baby, but earlier I thought I didn’t, and ya know what? That was wrong, otherwise I wouldn’t feel what I’m feeling right now.” Yeva said through her tears.
Josh put his head in his hands and wiped his silent tears away. Then he said asked quietly, “Yeva do I bore you in bed? Am I mean to you? What is wrong with me that you would do it again and again?” he was very hurt.
“You’re not bad in bed...I guess maybe I just grew accustomed to you, this was exciting.....because it was knew.” Yeva lied, she didn’t like him at all in bed, and the more she thought on it she never had. They both had been virgins tell their wedding night and maybe that was why....
“Yeva you’re lying! I’m sorry, I can change I promise I will! I’ll do whatever it takes, I love you that much. I can forgive you for this....if you let me....and you never do it again! We can see a therapist whatever it takes!” Josh said almost pleadingly, he loved her he really did. Yeva thought a second and then said, “Okay Josh....we need counseling because I’ve done something terrible and I want to work through it.” Josh smiled and hugged her....they hugged for a few seconds and then kissed a sweet kiss. Yeva wanted to make it up to him, he was so good to her. So she turned the kiss into more, and Josh went with it, that’s how naive he was sometimes.... He was trying to be good....maybe trying to hard but it didn’t thrill Yeva at all no matter how hard she tried. She was even already excited and Josh just killed whatever was left in her. After a few minutes of no responding Josh stopped and burst into tears.
“What’s wrong?” Yeva asked confused, she was so used to this ‘routine’ that she didn’t even notice that she wasn’t responding.
“What’s wrong?” Josh asked trying to calm himself down, “What’s wrong is I suck in bed and that’s why you go to this...this man! I need to go think...” Josh said getting up and leaving very upsetly.
Yeva didn’t know what to do just then, tell Patrick crawled back in through the porch and scared the hell out of her.
“Hey baby, I got bored waiting but it was worth it.” Patrick smiled as he crawled into her bed and started kissing her, it felt so right but she didn’t want to hurt Josh again.
“Patrick mmm....no!” Yeva yelled hesitantly as she pushed him off.
“What?” Patrick asked confused, he’d just hid in the stairwell, he didn’t know what Josh had said or done.”
“I can’t do this any OMG!” she said as Patrick went back to his prior business. She tried to stop him but he wouldn’t and she gave in. After a mind blowing hour she was laying in his arms.
“Patrick I....I can’t keep doing this.” Yeva said very satisfied.
“Well when you get sick of playing with that poor little guys heart, come with me and we can be happy.” Patrick whispered as he kissed her.
“I don’t want to hurt him anymore...I think I love him still.” Yeva said as Patrick rubbed her back as he cuddled with her.
“Well make up your mind because I don’t want to be hurt either.” Patrick said a little upset.
“Let’s not do this again.” Yeva said as she pulled away.
“Fine! The minute I get a chance to be behind that closed door with you again you’ll be all over me!” Patrick said a little offended.
“Yeah probably...” Yeva muttered as he got up and left.
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Re: Behind closed doors....
For the rest of that night all Yeva could do was lay there in bed. She didn't sleep. Here, she cheated on Josh again, she loved him, but she wanted Patrick. All she could think of was her romantic and great nights with Patrick. How could she get herself in such a mess, Josh proposed again and she had accepted it yet done this again! Again!
‘I never intended on doing it again, but when I seen the Patrick again I couldn't help myself...I feel so confused.' Yeva thought.
‘How was she going to make this up to Josh. True, every time her and Josh would have sex, she didn't feel anything. Yes, she loved Josh with all her heart, but what she and Patrick have, her and Josh may never have.' She just thought on and on.
In some way, Yeva felt dirty, filthy, and just plain sick. She couldn't stop thinking about Patrick, the way he touched her, made her feel....feel alive, feel real, and how he had just that special touch.
‘How? Why? What am I thinking? I cheated on my husband, I lied to him, and I Just completely ruined everything. I've lost Josh, and I've lost my pride, dignity, and foremost, I lost my all my senses.' Yeva said aloud to herself as she lay in bed looking at the empty spot where Josh would have been sleeping, if he were home.
The next morning Yeva Just got up early since she wasn't sleeping. Around 8:00am Josh called: ‘Hey, I was Just wanting to let her know I staid at Marc's last night, and Marc was Just gonna take me on to the studio. So, see you later.' This was the message Josh left on the machine. Yeva wanted to talk to Josh, but she honestly knew right then wasn't the time for them to talk.
At the studio, Josh hadn't said too much. This was odd to the other guys because the day before he had been so chatty and full of life. Now he was just dull and looked very upset. He was very upset, he loved Yeva and he wanted her to love him, it was all racing through his head.
"Hey man. What's up?" Ben asked in a cheery mood as he walked.
"Do you have to be so damn cheery every damn day of your life!" Josh snapped. He had been remembering the way Yeva had acted the night before just then.
"Ummm no, sorry man." Ben replied back a little upset at Josh's very painful comment (Ben was easily hurt.)
As Patrick walked in he didn't say much either. He was feeling bad about Josh, especially when he seen him almost break down and cry in the middle of a love song they were singing. But no matter how bad he felt he kept thinking of the way him and Yeva had been last night.
"Man what's going on? First Josh, now you!" Ben said a little upset as Patrick screwed up another song. "You still upset about that girl you like, right?" Ben asked hopeing he hadn't done anything to upset Patrick too.
"Yea, I still can't get over her. She is so awesome." Patrick said in a sad yet dreamy tone.
"Least your girl isn't cheating on you!" Josh said under his breath and very upsetly.
"What?" Patrick asked shocked and very scared that Josh knew.
All the guys were now looking at Josh.
"Well, Yeva cheated on me, and this isn't the first time either. She has cheated on me before, about a year ago. I keep forgiving her, taking her back, and now we are talking about seeing a marriage therapist to help us get through this AGAIN. I love her so much! I will do anything, and everything I can to keep this marriage together. I just wonder if I'm being stupid again..." Josh said really hurting and near tears at the memory of seeing Billy and Yeva together on the couch, they hadn't had sex, but they had made out and may have had sex had he not come in just then. It wasn't really either of their faults, they were both very drunk, but the things Yeva had said to him that night when she was wasted really hurt him....even to this day.
"Man! Sorry to hear that. Where did she meet the new guy?" Michael asked concerned but hesitant. "I have no clue! She went clubbing the other night, and all I can figure is she met him there!" Josh replied bitterly and slamming his fist on the keyboard.
"Has she ever mentioned his name, or said anything about who he was?" Marc asked.
"No......she hasn't said anything to me. All I know is, he is better in bed then I am apparently!" Josh said as he wiped away some tears that were starting to break through his tough skin he had tried to form.
"Well, if anyway, you want to try and find out who this jerk is, that is taking your wife you just lemme know I'll help. He has know business, and if he is smart, he would know she is married. She does wear the ring doesn't she?' Marc asked sticking up for his new buddy.
"Yeah, she wears her ring. Unless she takes it off when she is with him I don't know. Im NEVER there." Josh said angrily now.
Patrick couldn't say anything. He was mad at Marc for calling him a Jerk; but then again Marc was talking of the guy Yeva was cheating on Josh with....he didn't know it was him. He was worried Josh would find out who this other guy was, and he was worried Yeva might tell. But, he hoped know one would say anything to anyone. He was worried one of the other guys would say something about his clubbing, and the new girl he also met. But thankfully, none of the guys said anything. For the rest of the day the guys tried to work, but Josh kept bursting out into tears and had to take several breaks. Patrick would catch himself thinking, and dreaming of the time he spent with Yeva, and how much he liked her even after Josh would burst out into tears. But, he also wanted to either have her leave Josh, or stop messing with him. He didn't want to hurt his new friend, band mate, and he didn't want to hurt her either. The guys tried to practice but finally Marc insisted Josh go home or back to his house and even offered to go with him, but Josh said he wanted to go home, and talk to Yeva.
Yeva just moped around the house all day. She felt so bad and she wanted to make it up to Josh. She couldn't even cry she felt so bad! She made a decision. When Josh got home she was going to confess how bad she was and she was going to tell him the truth and break up with him. She burst into tears at that thought..... and then Josh came in.
Re: Behind closed doors....
“Baby listen I gotta....” Yeva said jumping up to tell him, she wanted to get it done and over with!
“No listen I gotta tell you something...” Josh said firmly, “listen...I love you so much! To much sometimes....Yeva I’m sick of being hurt over and over again. I’ll do anything to be with you! ANYTHING! But I just want you to love me back just as much if not more! Now listen up...” Josh said passionately as he walked in and sat on the couch, “I will get marriage counseling, I’ll even get a sex therapist! But I will only do it if you love me and you will never hurt me again, because Yeva I can’t stand to be treated like this.” Josh said sadly almost breaking down.
Yeva thought a second, she was still by the door and then she walked over and hugged Josh and sat on his lap. “Okay Josh, I love you too baby, and I’ll be a good girl.” Yeva said as he kissed her on the cheek, she felt tears come down his cheeks and she felt bad....he didn’t know.
“I love you so much! I’ll go call around and schedule something okay?” Josh asked, he was actually a little excited that in his mind she still loved him. When Josh left the room Yeva started sobbing uncontrollably. She felt so bad about what she had done.
‘Okay Josh never has to know....I’ll just never do it again!’ Yeva thought to herself and then she went and showered, she needed it....
When she got out of the shower she found Josh had made her dinner.
“Hey baby I scheduled something tomorrow with both therapist.” Josh said happily, ‘oh great’ yeva thought, now he’s in his own happy little world.
“Great...what’s all this?” Yeva forced herself to smile at the food that must have taken him the whole time to prepare, he liked to cook and it took a lot of trying but he was decent at it.
“Thai chicken for you....it’s your favorite.” Josh smiled as she sat down.
“Thank you.” Yeva said looking up at him almost in awe at how someone could be so good to her.
She started eating and noticed Josh was still staring at her.
“What you staring at?” Yeva asked feeling like maybe he could see into her.
“Oh I was just thinking how beautiful you were, and I noticed you took out your braids, you’re just so beautiful.” Josh said just staring at her still with a smile on his face.
“Oh umm thank you.” Yeva said looking around a little uncomfortable.
“Wanna watch a movie?” Josh suggested after she finished eating.
“Umm sure.” Yeva said feeling very uncomfortable and awkward.
Josh had rented ‘Titanic’ it was the movie they’d seen on their first date together. Yeva felt so upset when she seen his sweet gesture. They sat on the couch and started watching it and Josh insisted on holding her, he said he loved cuddling with her. Being in Josh’s arms, feeling how loving he was being to her, and seeing him just be in denial like that was driving Yeva crazy! She was actually honestly feeling sick to her stomach. She got up and ran for the bathroom and threw her guts up.
“Yeva are you okay?” Josh ran in after her very concerned.
“No...I’m honestly feeling really sick....I just need to go to bed early.” Yeva said getting sick again and ended up throwing up again.
“Oh baby here...” Josh helped her up after she was done. That made her want to throw up more but she was out of throw up!
Josh picked her up (which was hard for him to do because the way he was built) and took her and laid her on the bed.
“Here baby just lay there...I’ll go get that aspirin.” Josh said running out to get it. He came back and helped her take the medicine.
“Here I’ll lay by you...” Josh said holding her very gently. Yeva was about to faint because she felt so sick. And she did!
“Yeva! YEVA!” Josh screamed, he was scared now and he tried to bring her back....a few minutes later she woke up a little. Josh was about to call 911!
“Yeva oh thank god! Are you okay?” Josh asked concerned.
“No...I need sleep.” Yeva said and she passed out again. Josh thought she was sleeping so he calmed down a bit and fell asleep holding his Yeva.
The next morning Yeva woke up and just wanted to sleep again! Josh was holding her and she had to push him away and run for the bathroom. She was making herself sick is all she could think! She had to leave but her and Josh’s therapist sessions were in an hour. She couldn’t do this....she didn’t know what to do!
Yeva made herself get up and get dressed and just go sit on the ratty couch. That’s when Billy came in.
“Hey Mrs. King.” Billy said as he hauled in his suitcase and shut the door.
“Billy shut the hell up! How did ya know?” Yeva said almost scared to death.
“Pat told me, he said he had to tell someone because he didn’t know what to do. He told me to tell you to meet him tonight at 8.” Billy said unpacking and obviously not caring about what this all meant.
“Please don’t tell Josh...” Yeva said scared for Patrick and Josh alike.
“I won’t...u going?” Billy asked with a sly smile.
“No I’m not...I love Josh not Patrick!” Yeva said getting up and going into her and Josh’s room.
“Josh baby...Joshy wake up!” Yeva said waking him up.
“Huh wha?” Josh asked groggily.
“Baby we have our appointment in a half hour.” Yeva said kissing his forehead, uh oh she was in that denial now too.
“Okay I’m getting up.” Josh said as he sat up and hugged her.
“I love you.” he whispered in her ear as he kissed her cheek.
“I love you too.” Yeva said as they had a passionate good morning kiss.
“Mmm how bout we not go and just make up here?” Josh asked as he kissed her neck, Yeva was reluctant but she didn’t want to go so she said, “mmm sure baby whatever you want.”
Josh pulled her down and started kissing her neck, this time it wasn’t as sloppy as usual and Yeva actually enjoyed it, until it went farther.... Josh just seemed to forget about her pleasure and it went back into routine. But to avoid troubles Yeva went on with it and faked the whole 30 or so minutes!
When it was over Josh all of a sudden seemed to remember Yeva.
“Baby was that any better? Do you still want counseling?” Josh asked as he kissed her.
“Mmm that was much better, no I don’t wanna go to counselin.” Yeva lied as she just enjoyed being held.
“Okay...I love you.” Josh said as he cuddled with her.
“I love you too baby.” Yeva said...not sure if it was true or not.
Just then the phone rang, it was Lou Pearlman Josh’s new boss. After he got off the phone Josh said,
“Baby guess what...” he had a huge smile on his face.
“What?” Yeva asked feeling a little dirty now.
“Lou called and said he wanted me to go to Germany for the next month, and you can come too. We leave 2 Fridays from now (it was Saturday.)” Josh said with a smile.
“Really? Is any of the other guys gonna be there?” Yeva asked hesitantly.
“Yeah of course, we’re making our first single.” Josh said with a smile as he kissed her.
“Oh joy...” Yeva said a bit sarcastically.
The next Friday they flew out for Germany. Josh worked and packed obsessively. Yeva had just made up excuses to go shopping or avoid Josh for some reason or the other. She kept getting really sick and she thought it was because of Josh but a comment Billy made to her as they left upset her. They were walking out the door to leave when Billy said, “Bye you 3.”
Josh hadn’t heard and Yeva looked at him like he was a mad man and asked, “What the hell do you mean?”
Billy just smiled and said, “Well you 2 are bitchy today.”
Yeva gave him another funny look then Billy said, “I’m saying I think you’re ya know...in a motherly way.” and he winked.
“Shut up!” Yeva had said and left...but the more she thought about it the more it made sense. Then she ended up crying in the car and Josh asked what was wrong. She just lied and said nothing.
The first night in Germany Josh had to go to a practice. So Yeva ran out to a little drug store and bought a pregnancy test, it was positive.
She burst out crying...she didn’t need this and....and...what if it wasn’t Josh’s? What if it was? She didn’t know which one she wanted it to be.....
The more and more she thought about it she realized who the father was. When she had slept with Josh she had had 2 forms of protection...when she slept with Patrick she had none....It made a lot of sense now...and she just didn’t cry...she didn’t know how to feel just then.
As she sat staring at the pregnancy test Josh came in.
“Hey baby omg practice was so much fun....hey what’s wrong?” Josh asked looking at her upsetly.
“Oh umm....nothing nothing at all!” Yeva said quickly hiding the pregnancy test under the bed before Josh had noticed it (he was taking off his shoes and coat.)
“Oh okay you look upset...” josh said as he kissed her cheek.
“I’m fine.” Yeva insisted.
“Alright...hey I’m gonna go spend some time practicing more because I want to get this song down pat! Anyways I’ll be back soon.” Josh said as he took his folder and kissed her goodbye and left.
Yeva threw the test out the window and just went to sleep. The next few days passed uneventful. Yeva went to the doctor while Josh was working and the doctor confirmed her suspicions, and the fact it had to be Patrick’s from the closet encounter.
That night when Josh came home Yeva was just sitting thinking.
“Hey baby cheer up, remember we have that party to go to tonight?” Josh asked her to see if she had forgotten. It was Lou’s congratulations party for Natural to introduce them to fans and record execs. alike.
“Yeah I remember...” Yeva said getting up and getting dressed. When she tried to put on her short black dress she noticed it was to tight (it was designed to be really tight but 1 inch could make it not fit.) “Josh help me out here.” Yeva said walking out into the hotel living room and turning so he could zip her dress.
“Honey I don’t think it’ll zip...” Josh said after trying and trying again.
“Fine I’ll just wear my other one...” Yeva said upsetly, she hadn’t told Josh yet and she didn’t know what to do, tonight she was going to talk to Patrick and fix it.
When they got to the party Josh introduced Yeva to everyone he could. Before she could sneak away she had to sit and eat at the table with Patrick, Josh, and Ben. Patrick smiled when he seen her sit down.
“Hello Ms. Yeva.” he said happily.
“Hi Patrick.” Yeva said ignoring him.
Everyone chit chatted mindlessly as Patrick rubbed Yeva’s foot with his own under the table, he knew Josh was right there but he hadn’t been with Yeva for almost a month and he wanted her so badly.
“Oh hey Josh there’s Diana Krall!” Patrick pointed out after Ben had gotten up to pursue a girl he liked.
“OMG I’ll be right back....” Josh said happily as he got up and ran to see his idol.
“So baby...ya miss me?” Patrick asked with a smile once Josh had run off.
Yeva just took a big sip of her champagne and said, “I don’t know...”
“What? Have you forgot our dates? I miss you...” Patrick said almost a little hurt by that statement.
“I’m pregnant, it’s yours.” Yeva said bluntly as she sipped her champagne again.
Patrick’s eyes got huge at that! He almost fell out of his chair.
“WHAT!?!?” He almost shouted.
“I’m pr....hi Josh.” Yeva said as Josh came back, he looked thrilled, Patrick still had that look of shock on his face.
“Hi baby, what’s wrong with you Pat?” Josh asked noticing Patrick’s huge blue/green eyes.
“Oh Yeva just told me your going to be a daddy, congratulations!” Patrick said a little angry now as he got up walked off. What had thrown him to say that comment was Josh’s kiss to Yeva.
Yeva almost spit out her champagne and Josh got the same look Patrick had just had.
“Baby you are? Why didn’t you tell me!” Josh asked excited as he hugged her and kissed her. He was thrilled he had always wanted a baby.
“Umm surprise.” Yeva said, she was obviously drinking her troubles away though she shouldn’t because of her baby.
“Whoa what a great day!” Josh said with a smile on his face.
“Yeah yeah baby...hey why don’t you go tell Marc and the rest? I need to use the bathroom.” Yeva said getting up and she went off to follow Patrick who was walking fastly to his car outside.
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Re: Behind closed doors....
Yeva followed him and caught him before he had unlocked his door.
“Why the hell did you do that?” She asked angrily.
Patrick just left his keys in the door and turned to face her,
“Because you’re a dirty whore who cheated on your husband!” Patrick said coldly.
Yeva gasped in horror and said, “Well you’re a dirty man whore in that case because after the first time you KNEW I was married!”
“Yeah well...@#%$ you!” Patrick said turning to unlock his door again.
“No @#%$ you! This baby WILL be Josh’s and you aren’t going to ever see it!!!” Yeva said very upset now.
This hurt Patrick, he froze and said very coldly,
“I wanted love, I wanted to love you, and you pushed me away.....I didn’t see my dad tell I was grown because he abandon me and my mom and my sisters, I’m going to see this baby!”
Yeva was looking terrified, “No you won’t! If you tell Josh I slept with you I’ll tell him your lying and you weren’t the man.....ROT IN HELL!” Yeva screamed at him as she walked back inside to find Josh sitting at the table waiting for her.
“Hey baby...you feelin okay?” Josh asked when she sat back down.
“No...I need to go lay down.” Yeva said...it was true she felt terrible about Patrick and she was scared...scared that he might tell...
“Okay we can go home...” Josh said with a smile.
When they got back to the hotel Josh helped Yeva all the way up the stairs and helped her lay on the bed. He laid down by her and kissed her.
“You okay?” Josh asked concerned as he put his hand on her tummy.
“Yeah...yeah I’m fine.” Yeva said very distractedly.
“When did you...ya know? Find out?” Josh asked lovingly.
“Only yesterday...” Yeva lied, “But I wanted to tell you at the right time.”
“Well I’m just so excited....do you think it’s a boy or a girl?” Josh asked happily.
“I don’t know...I don’t care.” Yeva accidently said.
“What? Baby are you okay?” Josh asked concerned again.
“Yeah I’m just tired....I need sleep.” Yeva said as she closed her eyes, she was still in her evening dress.
“Here honey...” Josh said as he brought over her pajamas and helped her change.
“There now sleep all you want, I have to leave for the studio early tomorrow but I’ll be back by like 8 okay?” Josh asked as he held her.
“Okay...” Yeva said tonelessly and fell asleep in her husband’s arms. Josh fell asleep not to long after.
The next morning Josh woke up to see his beautiful wife still sleeping. Even after his shower she was still sleeping. So much had run though his mind since he’d fallen asleep. He was going to be a daddy! A DADDY! That made him thrilled, and the fact that he could give this baby such a good life made him even happier. He kissed Yeva goodbye and when he got to the studio he discovered only Ben there.
“Where’s the others?” Josh asked confused.
Ben was half asleep, he hated this 8am waking up thing! “Huh wha?” Ben asked groggily as he tried to stay awake.
“Where’s the other guys?” Josh asked again a little concerned now!
“Oh there (fall asleep, wake up) trying to...(fall asleep, wake up) drag Patrick out of the bus (fall asleep.)” Ben said as he could barely stay awake.
“Why won’t Patrick come off the bus?” Josh asked confused.
“(wakes up after Josh pokes him) Huh?! Oh he’s depressed.” Ben said trying to stay awake again.
Josh walked out of the studio to see the bus. There he seen Marc’s backside and the door opened and heard some people near shouting. He tried to get on the bus but Marc stopped him.
“What’s going on?” Josh asked again.
“Patrick’s really depressed...and he won’t tell anyone why! He refuses to get up...” Marc said concerned.
Back inside the bus Patrick was laying on his bed just very lifelessly. The night before he had come back and drank himself stupid. He ended up passing out on his bed in his boxers and a t-shirt. Right now he was lying depressed in his bed while Michael tried to sit on the end and talk to him.
“Pat what’s wrong with you? Please tell me...Marc’s outside.” Michael pleaded.
“I can’t....I won’t hurt her....” Patrick said very depressed.
“Hurt who Patrick?.......Patrick who?” Michael asked concerned.
“None of your business...” Patrick said rolling over so his back was to Michael.
Michael was really concerned, he had never seen his friend act this way!
“Patrick tell me! I swear I won’t tell...or you can tell everyone my secret....” Michael said with a hopeful smile.
“No one cares you’re still a virgin....” Patrick said bluntly.
“Shush....please?” Michael said annoyed but pleadingly.
“No....” Patrick insisted.
“Well okay tell me what’s wrong...” Michael tried again.
“What’s wrong?!?!” Patrick said very upset as he sat up, “What’s wrong is the fact I’ve lost everything Michael! I lost my girlfriend...” Patrick lied quickly....
“You had a girlfriend?” Michael asked confused.
“Yeah...and she left me...” Patrick went on with the lie. “And I don’t feel like talking bout it!” Patrick said quickly.
“You’re lying....please tell me...” Michael begged.
Patrick noticed the door was now locked and Marc had apparently left so he figured he had to tell someone...
“Fine you want to know the truth? Swear to god you won’t tell because this is serious!” Patrick said...he didn’t want to get Yeva in trouble.
“Swear to god.” Michael said now very concerned for his best friend in the world.
“I met a girl at a nightclub...we had sex....and she left. The next day I seen her again out...shopping,” Patrick lied quickly, “and anyways she’s one of our workers wives...and I don’t know why I let myself but we had sex again, and again....and then I seen her a few nights ago and she was all over her husband and well....she’s pregnant with my baby and she says I can’t ever see it and she’ll tell her husband I’m lying....” Patrick lied while letting it all out, he didn’t want Yeva to get into trouble.
“OMG who’s wife is it?” Michael asked now trying to make the connection.
“It was....Marc P’s.” Patrick lied quickly.
“Ewww how could you sleep with Anna?” Michael asked, Anna was a very bitchy woman.
“I did because I thought I loved her.....anyways don’t tell anyone okay?” Patrick pleaded.
“I won’t.....don’t worry buddy.....so......how do you feel about all this?” Michael asked very concerned for his friend.
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Re: Behind closed doors....
"I don't know...I want to be there for my baby....and I really love Ye...Anna." Patrick said in the same tone.
Michael couldn't believe all of what his friend had just told him. He wasn't about to tell anyone…Especially not Marc P. What was Patrick thinking? Was he crazy, or just so depressed about not having a girlfriend.
"That's good of you. You know Patrick…maybe you need to tell Marc P. and let him know what happened.....and I think you need to fight to see your baby. I mean, come on…that isn't right!" Michael said as he looked at Patrick. Patrick just said flatly,
"I want to fight. But I don't want to hurt Anna, and Marc P. I mean it would kill him and she would hate me forever.....Michael I love her!" Patrick said looking up.
"Patrick listen you gotta tell the poor man! Does he know she's pregnant?"
Michael asked.
"Yes I told him....I mean I just said congratulations to him.....and I mean....Mike…I didn't know she was married, and I soooo didn't know she was Marc Ps wife. I never met his wife, and now…this! I mean I knew after she told me the 2nd time we met....but It felt so right!" Patrick said almost pleadingly.
"Patrick you've always known Anna!!! This doesn't make any sence..." Michael said a little confused.
"Well....well I was wasted the first time I didn't recognize her! But the second time I knew..." Patrick lied quickly.
"Well Pat you have to tell Marc P, it's the only right thing to do!" Michael said passionately.
"I want to...but he'll hate me!" Patrick said scared thinking of the reaction Josh would have to know that that baby wasn't his.
"Patrick it's the right thing to do....does Anna love you?" Michael asked.
"I don't think so, she got pretty mad at me the other night....she hates me Michael!!!" Patrick said as he burst out into tears. Michael went over and hugged his friend.
"Patrick it's okay...maybe you need to talk to her....want me to help?" Michael asked trying to consul his friend.
"No...no let's just go practice now..." Patrick said forcing himself to get up.
Patrick quickly got dressed and had a few moments to think. He was so upset, and worried about all this, he was honestly talking without thinking sometimes. He was very hurt, and upset by Yeva's reaction, and telling him he couldn't see his baby. That might have hurt him more then not having Yeva. He loved Yeva, and he cared about her, but he wasn't about to turn his back on his baby. He swore to himself, if he ever had kids, he was gonna be there for them all the time.
"Hey man, I swear…I won't tell a soul, not even my family!" Michael said as Patrick came back, he couldn't help but somewhat chuckle.
Patrick just gave him a shut up moron sort of look.
"Sorry dude. I wasn't trying to make jokes." Mike said.
As the guys were walking off the bus, Josh walked fast towards the studio.
"Hey! Josh! STOP!" Patrick yelled at him.
‘Oh boy…Im in for it' Josh thought to himself as he stopped reluctantly.
"Why you walking so fast? Were you standing outside the bus while Mike and I talked? Josh Horn…were you listening to me and Mike's conversation!" Patrick asked urgently (almost hysterically) looking down at Josh.
"Ummm…I was standing out there, but the door was locked, and I couldn't get in. So…I waited and all I heard was yelling. Patrick…I swear…I didn't hear anything." Josh said hoping Patrick and Mike would believe him.
"Dude, you better not be lying…or you're a dead man." Patrick said as he walked towards the studio door.
Josh had honestly not heard anything that was said on the bus, but he knew something was up, and he could tell this wasn't good. He just quietly walked into the studio behind Mike, and Patrick.
"Hey Josh!" Ben said as he walked up behind him. Josh almost ran. Ben scared him half to death. "Hey…man, didn't mean to scare you. You ok?" Ben said.
"It's umm...ok. I'm fine...really. HEY! I thought you were in the studio? When did you come out here?" Josh said still shaken.
"Dude, you look like someone is after you. What the world is wrong with you? When you were over at the bus waiting to get in, I came out to my car to get coffee to warm up." Ben said confused.
"No, no, no…Im fine, you just startled me." Josh said with a sigh.
"You sure? You look like someone is gonna kill you." Ben said worriedly. "Really, Ben Im fine. Don't worry." Josh replied.
As Josh and Ben walked in the studio, Patrick, or Mike said anything. Both of them were still worried Josh might have heard what was said, and Mike was stunned at what Patrick had just told him. Patrick was thinking deeply.
‘I hope I don't get Marc P. in trouble. I Just couldn't tell Mike the truth, but I didn't need to add more to this thing then it already has.' Patrick thought to himself.
"Hey Pat, you ready?" Marc asked him as Patrick sat dazed. "Oh yea, lets practice." Patrick said bluntly. As the guys practiced, Patrick could barely concentrate. All he could he could think of was his baby, and how was he gonna pull this off. He wanted to be part of this baby's life, and he wanted to be the best father he could. The only problem was Yeva, and Josh. What was he going to do? How was he gonna do this, and not hurt his new best friend Josh, and how was he gonna spare the impact on the group? And what about Yeva? He loved her, and something inside him knew she loved him too, but what about poor Josh?
Meanwhile back at home Yeva was waking up. She felt ok for now, and she felt really bad for everything that has been happening. So, she decided to go down to the studio and surprise Josh. That was least she could do…she thought. As she got ready, and fixed herself up some, and tried to look half way nice, she started thinking....'If I go to the studio, Patrick will be there…and Im not sure if I am ready to see him…now' Yeva thought to herself.
She then thought…'If I go that will prove to Josh I love him, and I want to be with him, and Patrick will see I am leaving him behind, and I wasn't kidding when I said…He isn't seeing this baby!'
After 15 minutes of getting ready, Yeva went to the studio. When she got there she sat in her car for a little while. She wanted to go see Josh, but she didn't want to see Patrick. She wasn't ready, and she wasn't sure how she could handle it. She also wasn't sure of what she wanted...she knew she didn't love Josh like she loved Patrick.....she knew what she was doing was wrong.....but Josh deserved her to try to love him!
After sitting in the car for sometime, Yeva got out, and went in. She decided she would sit in the back room, for a lil bit, and just watch them since the guys were recording at the moment. As she sat down….she saw the closet, and everything went running through her head.
As Yeva sat, and watched the guys work, all she could do was look at Patrick, and then she would look at Josh. She honestly wasn't sure what she was gonna say, or do when she saw them both at the same time. But before she knew it, the light to go in the studio went off, so she got up, and walked over to the studio door.
Edited by: JsJuliet at: 2/24/03 3:02:00 pm
Re: Behind closed doors....
As the guys walked out Josh and Ben were laughing about something they were talking about, Marc was on his cell phone talking to Sarah, and Michael had his arm around Patrick’s shoulder, Patrick looked very depressed! When Josh seen Yeva he got all excited and ran over and hugged and kissed her. This caused Patrick to break out crying and run off to the bathroom with Michael running to follow him.
Yeva seen this and she felt really bad. Josh was so excited to see her.
“Hey baby I missed you!” Josh said as he held her.
“I missed you too.” Yeva said looking over his shoulder to where Patrick had run off to.
“Ben, Ben come here! Guess what!” Josh said excitedly as Ben walked over there.
“What?” Ben asked curiously.
“We’re having a baby!” Josh said happily. Yeva just forced herself to smile. The night before Josh hadn’t gotten a chance to tell anyone because Marc and Sarah had run off and Michael was flirting with some model, and Ben was pretty well...drunk which was okay in Germany for his age.
“Wow congratulations! When is it due?” Ben asked happily, he was happy for his new friend.
“Ummm... late September.” Yeva said as Marc walked over as he put his cell phone away.
“Hey congratulations! Hey Yeva me and Sarah we’re wondering why you and Patrick were fighting in the parking lot the other night.” Marc asked curiously.
“Umm what do you mean?” Yeva asked trying to play innocent.
“I *mean* that me and Sarah we’re having fun in the car next to Patrick’s and we heard you two yelling at each other.” Marc said matter of factly. Ben ewwwed at the news of what Sarah and him had been doing and Josh pulled away from Yeva and looked at her a little confused.
“Marc you must have me confused with someone...because I only seen Patrick at our table, then he left and I went to the bathroom, so it wasn’t me.” Yeva said nervously.
“Oh okay I wasn’t really paying attention but I swore your name was mentioned!” Marc said a little confused. Josh just put his arm around Yeva and the 4 of them went out to the tour bus to wait for Patrick and Michael.
Meanwhile in the bathroom Patrick was trying his best to stop crying.
“Patrick! Patrick are you okay?” Michael asked as he ran in after him.
“No...” Patrick managed to sob.
“Pat what’s wrong?” Michael was confused because he didn’t know it was Yeva.
“I just started thinking about Anna....” Patrick lied. Just then Marc P walked out of one of the stalls.
“What about Anna?” Marc P asked confused as he washed his hands. Patrick didn’t really give him a second thought but Michael’s eyes got huge.
“Umm just that...so is she okay?” Michael asked trying to think of something to say.
“Yeah why?” Marc P asked confused. Patrick just got up and walked out.
“Because she didn’t feel good the other day...” Michael said lying through his teeth as he ran to follow Patrick. Marc P just thought they were high or something.
Patrick meanwhile ran to get on the bus not realizing everyone else would be on there. When he walked in he heard Josh saying, “Well how about Andy if it’s a girl or boy?”
“Because that’s a stupid name!” Patrick said harshly as he walked on the bus, he really felt like he hated Josh right now but he really just hated the situation.
Josh looked up at him confused at his anger, and Yeva near jumped at the sound of his voice.
“Well it’s not really YOUR decision is it now?” Josh asked back just trying to show Patrick he wouldn’t take crap.
“IT SHOULD BE!!!!!!! I hate you all! I’m driving to the next show!!!!” Patrick shouted realizing he shouldn’t have said what he said and got off the bus and into his car.
Josh just looked confused and Yeva was about to cry. She felt so bad about what she had done to Patrick. But she couldn’t hurt Josh as bad as she had Patrick... Josh noticed her wet eyes and said, “Oh honey ignore him, he’s just grouchy lately.” and he kissed her which sent Yeva into a crying fit.
“What? What’s wrong?” Josh asked confused.
“I’m sorry, must just be mood swings.” Yeva lied.
“It’s okay....shh....Here lemme get you something to eat.” Josh said as he got up. Yeva just tried to not think of Patrick.
Just then Michael jumped on the bus.
“Where’s pat?” Michael asked concerned.
“He said he was driving.” Ben said matter of factly.
“Crap! DAMN ANNA!” Michael screamed as he got off the bus and found Patrick’s car.
He got in before Patrick could drive away. Patrick was crying on the steering wheel.
“What’s wrong now?” Michael asked concerned.
“Michael I lied! It’s not Anna and Marc P! It’s YEVA AND JOSH!” Patrick said sadly as he pulled himself together. Michael’s eyes just got huge and he barely could talk.
“Patrick OMG!!! When did this happen?!?” Michael asked enlightened with the new confession.
“It happened *sniff* the night I went out *sniff* I met her at the club and Michael I DIDN’T KNOW! I didn’t know...” Patrick said trying to pull himself together again.
Michael just sat froze and waiting for the next part.
“She...*sniff* she came back and we slept together and I wanted her to stay but she said she couldn’t. The next day I met Josh and her and knew why she wouldn’t stay! Then when I met her it was when I came back from the bathroom before I’d come in the studio.....we went into the closet....and you guys almost caught us....that might have been for the better...” Patrick said crying again. “She invited me over and Josh almost caught us.....and that was the last time I was with her.” Patrick said as he wiped his eyes and started up the car.
“Here buddy let’s switch places I’ll drive.” Michael said toneless.
Patrick just mechanically got out and obeyed. When Michael turned on the car and drove off he asked, “Pat.......what are you going to do?”
Patrick just sat silent for a few moments and said, “I don’t know...I love her Michael and seeing them together kills me...she doesn’t love me I know that!!! But I mean I’m going to have to see this baby and pretend it’s not mine! That’s not right...” Patrick said breaking into tears again.
“Shh it’s okay....Patrick ya know I bet Yeva will go home before that baby is born...maybe you should just let Josh raise it. I mean....he is a good guy. Maybe it’s his!” Michael said trying to think of something to say again.
“Maybe...and no it’s not his....I know in my heart it’s not...” Patrick said sadly.
“Okay...you want to talk about it anymore?” Michael asked still concerned.
“No....I’m *sniff* I’m going to be okay...” Patrick said sadly as he laid his head on his hand.
“Okay.....” Michael said.
When the guys got to Munich about 5 hours later, Michael and Patrick just went up to their room. So did everyone else.
The next 8 months passed with Natural getting bigger and bigger around Germany. Patrick managed to be okay around Yeva...but it still hurt him really bad to see her and Josh together. Michael always tried to comfort him but it was really no help...
Lou announced to the guys they would be doing a tour soon, which Josh protested but Yeva insisted her and the baby could go home.
When Yeva was exactly 9 months pregnant Josh got really sick. He had the flu and insisted Yeva stayed with Ben because he didn’t want to get her sick.
Lou decided Natural could have a week off so Josh could get better. Yeva hadn’t really spoken to Patrick since the day of their fight. The 2nd day she was staying with Ben, Ben came in and started packing.
“What are you doing?” Yeva asked confused.
“Yeva please don’t hate me or tell Josh but I met this girl...and I’m gonna stay with her for the next few days....but don’t worry I got Michael to help with you so you’ll be okay.” Ben said as he threw clothes into the suitcase.
“Whatever...” Yeva said not really caring. She had been really depressed the farther in the pregnancy she got.
“Okay love ya bye bye!” Ben said as he kissed her cheek and left.
Yeva just decided to watch some TV, she really didn’t need watched, but Josh had insisted on it.
At the same time Michael was in the other room talking to Patrick. Patrick had gotten even more depressed then Yeva during the last 8 months. He barely ever talked and he was always messing up singing or playing the guitar. Nothing could consul him no matter how hard anyone tried. Michael had kept his secret well, but he wanted his friend to be happy. Alls Patrick could think of was how his baby would always think it’s father was Josh, and how Patrick lost the two loves of his life at once.
“PATRICK!!! OMG your going to be so happy come on come on!” Michael said as he took Patrick’s suitcase (Patrick hadn’t unpacked) and hand.
“What? Why?” Patrick asked in the depressed tone he had taken on.
“Hmm...you need a shower, go get one then I’ll give you the biggest surprise you’ve ever had!” Michael said happily.
“Why bother?” Patrick said not really caring.
“Come on do it please!?” Michael begged.
“Fine...but this better be the best damn thing in the world!” Patrick snapped as he took the pair of clothes Michael was holding out for him.
Patrick really couldn’t think of what the surprise was, maybe Josh had died from the flu. He was ashamed of himself for smiling at that thought! But still...
When Patrick came out of the shower Michael looked at him a little funny, “God Patrick you haven’t tried to look nice since...well anyways here...” Michael said as he took a comb and did Patrick’s hair so it didn’t look like a raggedy Barbie doll’s, “There. Perfect. Now come on and smile!” Michael insisted.
Patrick just obeyed and followed. He noticed they were going into Ben’s room. It didn’t dawn on him Yeva would be in there. They stopped at the door and Michael turned to Patrick and said,
“Okay listen, I umm...me and Ben are going to stay the night with our girls tonight and I need you just to stay in his room for me tell I come back. Okay?”
Patrick looked at Michael like he was brain dead or something but agreed reluctantly. Michael handed him the key and walked off as Patrick opened the door.
Yeva jumped but then remembered Michael was supposed to be coming over. She was laying on the bed and couldn’t see the door.
“OMG!” Patrick yelled as he seen her sitting there when he came in.
“What the hell are you doing here?” they asked at the same time.
“Michael told me he had to leave for the week and to stay in here.” Patrick said still in shock. He noticed Yeva looked like she was ready to go into labor any day.
“Great! What the hell kind of scheme was this?” Yeva asked upset.
“I don’t know I didn’t know anything about it!” Patrick said coming in and sitting on the other bed. He tried not to look at Yeva because he was worried he would cry.
Yeva just looked over at him and felt so bad for what she had done, she wanted to make it right but how?
“So...are you feeling okay?” Patrick asked shyly, he didn’t want her to yell at him again.
“As okay as I can I guess...which isn’t very much!” Yeva complained, wow no one had asked her how she felt, Josh hadn’t even before he got sick.
“Anything I can do?” Patrick asked.
“No...I’m okay...*ouch* damn baby you can’t escape that way!” Yeva said, the baby was kicking her.
“Hey it don’t know any better.” Patrick teased.
“Shush...its your fault I’m in this mess!” Yeva snapped. That hurt Patrick.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t make you sleep with me!” He snapped back.
“Listen I’m sorry...I treat you really badly...forgive me ya know mood swings and all.” Yeva said feeling bad for snapping at him.
“It’s okay...Yeva do you love me?” Patrick asked, he had to know.
“I....I don’t want to answer that.” Yeva said. Her and Josh had grown more and more apart since the pregnancy began, she was feeling stupid for not leaving him.
“Why?” Patrick asked hurt.
“Because...I made a huge mistake....I should have left Josh! I should now....but he thinks this baby is his...” Yeva said looking at her tummy.
“Well ya know...I still love you a lot...” Patrick admitted, he had wanted to say that forever.
“I know...” Yeva said sadly.
“Listen...you can always count on me okay?” Patrick said trying to tell her how he felt.
“Ouch OMG....Patrick....I think the baby is coming!” Yeva said in a lot of pain, she had been in a lot of pain for the last few days. Patrick’s eyes got big.
“OMG okay umm...okay umm where’s your stuff come on we can go now if you want.” Patrick said panicky, he hadn’t expected to be with her when the baby came.
“Over there.” Yeva pointed to her suitcase as he helped her up.
In the car over it came more and more apparent that baby was going to come sometime that night or next morning. Patrick was just concentrating on getting to the hospital, he didn’t even have time to think!
When they got there Yeva was in labor for about 14 hours. Josh was conked out on sleeping pills so Marc couldn’t even wake him up to tell him. He promised when Josh did wake up he’d send him over. Between one of her contractions Yeva managed to say how happy she was Patrick was there and Josh wasn’t.
Patrick just sat and held her hand the whole 14 hours! About 8AM the next day the baby finally came. Josh still wasn’t there (he’d gotten really sick and Marc decided not to tell him so he could rest more.) Patrick was thrilled to death! It was a baby girl with light black skin and curly black hair but the give away of who’s kid it was was the eyes. Blue eyes! Patrick was thrilled to hold his little girl first.
“What are ya going to name her?” Patrick asked curiously as he looked at his baby.
“I don’t know...but Josh is going to know now!” Yeva said almost distraught.
“Why?” Patrick asked confused, he was just in love with his daughter he didn’t notice what Josh almost certainly would.
“Her eyes....Josh and me don’t have any relatives with blue eyes.” Yeva said sadly.
Patrick looked at her eyes and said, “OMG she is mine!” he was so happy at that.
“You can name her...” Yeva offered, she wasn’t up for any of Josh or her name’s.
“Really? Whoa...ummm....how about....Melanie Lynn?” Patrick said as he looked at her.
“Works for me.” Yeva said, she was just really tired and scared about Josh.
***as a note, if your gonna add make sure you like don't have Josh notice her eyes, and him and Yeva stay together for a little longer but they fight to much so Yeva admits (have the kid be like almost a year old now) what she did and they divorce and then she meets up with Pat again but they don't hook up right away.***
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Re: Behind closed doors....
"Okay I love you." Patrick said a little hesitantly.
"I....I'm tired." Yeva said.
"Alright..." Patrick said a little hurt, "You just rest and don't worry bout anything, I'll take care of Melanie."
As Yeva lay in the bed sleeping, Patrick sat in the rocking chair holding his Melanie. As Patrick held her he thought how precious she was, and how proud of his lil girl he was. He never wanted to let her go!
Finally after about an hour or so, the nurse came in. "Mrs. Horn, we need to put the baby's name down. Do you have one chosen yet?" the nurse asked. Yeva had just woken up.
"Yes. Melanie Lynn H...orn. Melanie Lynn Horn." Yeva replied nervously. She wanted to put King down for the baby's last name, but she knew that wouldn't be good. Patrick just looked at her, happily but a little hurt because he had wanted her to put King down for the last name as well. Patrick was really thrilled overall though.
As Patrick sat holding Melanie, the nurse replied with a laugh, "Sir… If I didn't know…Id think you were the father as happy as you look sitting there."
"Hehe...yea." Patrick just replied just so content looking at his baby.
"Well, have a good afternoon. I will leave you guys to rest." The nurse said walking out of the room. Patrick and Yeva just looked at one another.
"You don't think she suspected anything….do you?" Yeva asked worriedly.
"Nope, she just said…I looked to happy not to be the baby's father. That's all she meant." Patrick replied.
"Hey, umm...Patrick. I've been thinking I was thinking when I said…you couldn't be part of Melanie's life; that was wrong. You deserve to be as much in her life, as I do. I was also thinking, I could come to the studios a lot more, pretend to come see Josh, and really be coming to let you see her. Patrick, you need to be in Melanie's life, you are her father, and nothing will change it. I will think of reasons to come to the studio, and I was thinking, maybe you could come over, and just hang out some. Like….you just wanted to come hang out with Josh. Im not gonna let Josh you keep from letting you see her. I will fight Josh, if anything." Yeva told Patrick as she lay in bed watching him hold his lil girl.
"Yeva, you would really do that? Wow! What made you change your mind? I honestly didn't think you were gonna let me see the baby, after all…everything that has happened." Patrick said shocked. "I know. I did say you weren't to see her, but that is another wrong! I don't need to have two wrongs! Id much rather have one wrong, and one right. Don't worry about Josh, I will think of something. One more thing…Id honestly much rather have you as her father, then Josh. I know, that's not good to say, but….Patrick, I love you. I don't love Josh." Yeva said with tears in her eyes as she tried to wipe them away.
"Yeva, don't worry, I will be here for this baby and you no matter what. Im not sure how, but I will!" Patrick said looking at Melanie then at her. Then he added quietly "Yeva, I told Michael. He knows everything. Michael is my best friend, and I've known him before Natural got together. I think since he knew about this he was the one that came up with the idea of us staying in the room together. Michael has good intentions, and I think he knew how much I missed you.." Patrick said rocking Melanie.
"Well, long as he keep his mouth shut, I don't care about him knowing." Yeva said.
"He won't tell, he has known about this for almost 5 months." Patrick said as he just admired his baby.
Just about then the phone rang,
"Hello? Hey Marc, how are ya? How is Josh feeling" Yeva asked as she answered it.
"He is feeling some what better, He is still out, but I tried to tell him. Im hoping he will be awake in a couple hours. And when he wakes up, Im gonna tell him about the baby." Marc replied.
"Oh! Marc…tell Josh not to come to the hospital right away. I don't want him getting the baby or me sick. He can come tomorrow, or later this week. Patrick will stay here tonight. He brought me to the hospital, and tell Josh…Im fine. Don't tell him what the baby is…I want to tell him! Have him call me when he is MORE awake. Ok?" Yeva said with a smile. Patrick was giving her a funny look now.
"Ok, will do. I'll have him call soon as he's conscious. I will talk to you later. Have a good afternoon." Marc said as he hung up.
As Yeva hung up the phone Patrick said, "You did that on purpose, didn't you?"
"Yeah you deserve to be with Melanie more then Josh does. Shshshsh" Yeva said with a smile. "Thank you." Patrick said as he kissed Melanie on her forehead.
For the rest of the afternoon Patrick held Melanie as Yeva rested. About diner time, J called.
"OMG! Yeva. Im so sorry. Are you ok? How is the baby? What is the baby?" Josh asked all excited. "Hi Josh. The baby is a girl, and I named her Melanie Lynn Horn. The nurse needed a name, and I couldn't wait for you to come conscious. Im sorry." Yeva said.
"Oh, that is fine I guess.... I love that name. It is a cute name. Melanie Lynn Horn. Oh, what does she look like?" Josh asked.
At this question, Yeva thought….Patrick. But she said, "light black skin, curly black hair, blue eyes, and she weighed 5lbs and 3 ounces. She is really small."
"Awwww…just like me!" Josh chirped happily. Both Patrick and Yeva quietly laughed at J's comment.
"Yea Josh, just like you. Well Im gonna go, I need some rest, and Melanie is finally sleeping, so Im gonna try and get some sleep." Yeva said as she looked and smiled at Patrick lovingly rocking Melanie.
"Well, I love you. Call me if you need me. You sure you don't want me to come up there with you? I can!" J said.
"No! J you are sick. Don't get to close right now. Get well. You have the rest of your life with her. Get better, and I will see you soon." Yeva said with a smile as she kept watching Patrick and Melanie.
"Ok, talk to you soon. I love you lots. Bye bye." J said hanging up.
As Yeva hung up the phone, she sighed.
"Is he ok? You ok?" Patrick asked her.
"Yea, this is just gonna be hard. You know…sneaking around, and keeping J in the dark." Yeva replied.
"Well we are good at that. We can keep quiet. Yeva if you ever....ya know want to come clean and have a good life...I'm always here." Patrick said shyly.
Yeva just looked at her hands and rolled over so she could see Patrick and Melanie better.. That night Patrick slept on the cot the nurse left for him next to Melanie's bed and all of them slept the whole night. Melanie didn't wake them up once, and Yeva really appreciated that.
Re: Behind closed doors....
The next morning Yeva woke up before Patrick. Melanie was awake but not crying, just laying there. Yeva got up and picked her up, “Hi baby...” she said. This was the first time she’d actually held Melanie.
Melanie just cooed and then screwed up her face and cried. Yeva figured she must be hungry so she got a bottle out and made it. She sat down in her bed and held the baby. She looked over at Patrick as she fed Melanie. Patrick must have hurt from sleeping on that little cot....and she really wished she could comfort him...not in a friend way. Just then there was a knock on the door that scared the crap out of her!
“Hi baby.” Josh said as he walked in.
Yeva’s eyes got huge! Josh was visibly better and very excited.
“There’s my daughter! Ohhh she’s so cute.” Josh said as he picked Melanie up from Yeva.
“Uh yeah....” Yeva said getting up. Josh just looked at the baby ecstatically.
“Oh Yeva she’s beautiful!” Josh said thrilled to death.
“Yeah...” Yeva said all of a sudden feeling really sick.
“Oh her eyes are beautiful! She looks just like me!” Josh said thrilled.
“Yeah...Josh I’m not feeling well.” Yeva said, she wasn’t lying either.
“Oh baby you okay?” Josh asked as he looked up from his baby.
“No...” Yeva said thinking of the lie she was letting go on.
“Okay...I’ll just take care of the baby...when Pat wakes up he can leave.” Josh said matter of factly as he looked down at Melanie.
Yeva wanted to cry at that but she didn’t. “Okay...” she managed to say.
“Hey baby I was thinking....I already told Lou. I’m quitting Natural. We got plenty of money and you can go to Beauty School now and we can get this really nice house and give our daughter a good life.” Josh said happily as he admired Melanie.
“Josh no! I love these guys, I don’t want you to abandon them....their starting their 2nd album! They need you!” Yeva objected fast.
“Well honey our daughter needs a normal life...” Josh said concerned.
“Josh please...” Yeva pleaded.
“Nope my minds made up.” Josh said as he kissed Melanie.
Yeva did her best not to cry. Josh held Melanie for awhile then went to get lunch for Yeva and himself and Patrick. Patrick was still asleep, he’d stayed up all night watching Melanie.
When Josh was gone Patrick finally woke up. Yeva was sitting in the bed crying. Melanie was in her crib.
“Morning Ye....Yeva what’s wrong?” Patrick asked as he put on his glasses and seen her crying. He got up and hugged her.
“Josh came over here *sob* and he said he quit Natural and we’re leaving to the USA and we’re gonna live there....without you guys...” Yeva said as she burst out again in to tears.
Patrick froze at that...he knew the guys we’re touring and staying in Germany then Asia for the next year or so!
“Yeva....it’s okay.” Patrick said as he kissed her cheek.
“No! No its not!....Patrick I hate that man! He is annoying and....I can’t do this...I can’t.” Yeva cried as Patrick held her. Just then Patrick heard footsteps and jumped off the bed and just left. Good timing because those were Josh’s foot steps.
In the next few weeks Josh packed his family up, and moved them back to America. He had bought a nice house in Florida which actually was down the street from Lou’s mansion. Yeva was really depressed but she tried to hide it. The other Natural members came to see the family off at the airport and say goodbye. Everyone was sad but it was apparent Patrick was almost dying from this. Over that week he hadn’t got to see his daughter at all, and it weighed on his shoulders a lot. Michael had tried to cheer him up but nothing worked.
At the airport Josh and the other guys ran to the food court quickly, leaving Patrick one chance.
“Yeva don’t leave, tell him now please.” Patrick pleaded in tears.
“Patrick....I can’t.” Yeva said sadly.
“Can I hold Melanie one last time?” Patrick pleaded.
“There coming back.” Yeva said sadly.
“Fine...here.” Patrick said as he handed her a piece of paper. “It’s my home address and my phone numbers and email and everything, please contact me.” he said sadly.
“Okay I will.” Yeva said near tears as she hugged him.
That’s when the guys got back. Yeva and Josh and Melanie boarded the plane and left. Patrick did his best not to cry but he couldn’t even make it to the bus without breaking down.
Ben and Marc looked at him funny. Michael just ran over and hugged him. Michael took Patrick into the other room and locked the door.
“Pat are you okay?” Michael asked concerned.
“No...I barely got to say goodbye!” Patrick cried.
“You did you did! Shh....” Michael said as he hugged him.
“I didn’t get to hold Melanie...” Patrick said sadly.
“You’ll hold her again someday...” Michael said reassuringly.
“No I won’t! NO!” Patrick said as he cried.
When Josh, Melanie, and Yeva got home the next day Josh was trying to cheer Yeva up still. She’d been really depressed and he felt bad. The home Josh got them was a nice 8 bedroom, 3 bathroom, 2 living room, 3 spare rooms, 2 dining room, 1 huge kitchen and basement house. It was almost as huge as Patrick’s as Yeva remembered it. After settling in it was apparent that Josh and Yeva weren’t getting along.
3 months after moving in Yeva and Josh had started having stupid little fights regularly.
“JOSH! Why haven’t you changed Melanie?” Yeva shouted at him, she’d just woken up from her nap, it was noon.
“Because its your turn!” Josh shouted from his studio he had made in the basement.
“Jesus Christ alls I ask for is a little help!” Yeva snapped at him.
“Well maybe you shouldn’t be such a bitch over everything!” Josh snapped back.
“@#%$ you!” Yeva shouted at him as Melanie started to cry. Melanie had cried almost half of everyday since they left. Neither Josh nor Yeva could make her shut up until she got tired of crying. Yeva laid Melanie down in her crib and went down to the studio.
“Josh I am sick of this! Why do you treat me like crap since we’ve come back?” Yeva yelled at him.
“Because you’ve acted like crap since we’ve come back!” he shouted at her, she was always nagging him.
“Well maybe if you lifted a damn finger around here!” Yeva shouted back
“Well maybe if you didn’t sit on your ass pretending to study or take care of the baby!” Josh snapped back.
“@#%$ you!” Yeva shouted at him again.
“God ya know what why don’t you go cheat on me again? Billy pointed out to me that neither of us have blue eyes! Why should I take care of your bastard child?” Josh snapped at her. That is what had been bugging him since the week before when Billy had pointed out how the baby didn’t look at all like him and had blue eyes.
Yeva was horrorfied by that comment! “Josh how dare you! Ya know what? I should just move I should just leave! I hate you!” Yeva said very upset with him now.
“Well maybe you should! Go be a ghetto bitch and drag YOUR daughter with you.” Josh said very hurt.
“@#%$ you!” Yeva shouted at him.
She ran upstairs, grabbed Scooby (their greyhound) and his leash, and changed Melanie and put her in the stroller. She decided she was going for a walk because that is all that would calm her down.
As her, Scooby, and Melanie walked down the streets she noticed a car pull up in a mansion’s parking space that looked familiar a few streets away. The license plate said ‘bigpoppa’ and for some reason she stopped to see who would get out. She always wondered why the house looked familiar to her. Out of the car walked Patrick! Yeva’s eyes got huge, it was apparent he hadn’t seen her yet.
He was on a cell phone and it was apparent he was getting through to whoever he was trying to call. When he hung up and hung his head in frustration Yeva just had to yell “Patrick!”
Patrick looked in her direction startled and the lifted up his sunglasses to make sure he wasn’t hallucinating. He ran over to Yeva and Melanie hugged Yeva immediately. Melanie giggled at the site of him and lifted her arms up trying to reach him. Patrick held Yeva for a second and then he kissed her out in public!
Then he heard Melanie and reached down and picked her up.
“Oh Melanie! Yeva! I missed you guys so much!!! I was trying to call you...I wondered where you lived and I was back home so I wanted to see you!” Patrick said happily as he held his now 4 month old daughter.
“Why are you home?” Yeva asked confused.
“I got really depressed....and Michael convinced Lou to send me home...so he did! Why are you in this area?” Patrick asked with a smile.
“We live down the street...for now.” Yeva said sadly.
“What do you mean for now?” Patrick asked concerned.
“I mean Josh and me are fighting a lot...I think when I get back I’m going to tell him the truth because he suspects it....we got in a fight just a few minutes ago and I just went for a walk.” Yeva said remembering.
“You well...you could stay with me....” Patrick offered shyly.
“I think we will....in fact if you want to take Melanie I think I’ll go back right now and tell him.” Yeva offered. Patrick was ecstatic at that offer!
“Yes of course!” he said thrilled.
“Great....I’ll be back.” Yeva said as she turned to leave.
When she got home Josh was sitting on the couch crying.
“What’s wrong?” Yeva asked confused.
“Results...” Josh said through his tears.
“What results?” Yeva asked confused.
“I took Melanie for a DNA test and she didn’t match me at all...” Josh said looking up at Yeva.
“Josh we need to talk...” Yeva said sitting beside him.
“What? Are you going to lie to me again?” Josh asked madly.
“No...the truth is Patrick is her father....I slept with him...I love him...and I want a divorce.” There she had finally said it.
“Yeva I can change!” Josh cried.
“Josh you don’t love me...I know you love Alisa.” Yeva said sadly. She had seen them kiss the other day.
“I only did it because I was upset!” Josh said.
“Josh we always fight....I need to be happy, and you do too!” Yeva said.
“You’re right...pick you and Melanie’s crap up tomorrow.” Josh said toneless.
“Fine...” Yeva said getting up and she went into her and Melanie’s room and packed a little suitcase with their stuff in it.
Then she decided to change clothes. She had her hair in two braids, and a red bandanna, and she was wearing khaki pants and a red t shirt. She felt like a mess for Patrick to see. So she put on a push up bra, white t shirt, and jeans and combed out her hair. Then she took her car and drove off to Patrick’s.
***Dont end the story yet, keep it goin ***
Katie aka
*Kalliope Star Anise*
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Re: Behind closed doors....
When she pulled up she noticed the stroller was gone and Patrick's car must be in the garage. She got out of her car and knocked on the door. Patrick shouted to come in.
When Yeva came in Patrick was in the living room playing with Melanie. He was laying on the floor with her talking to her, and pretending her toy was talking to her.
"What the world are you doing?" Yeva asked with a laugh.
"Oh! Hi, I was playing with Melanie, sorry. Let me help you with that." Patrick said as he got up, and took the suitcases from Yeva.
"Where do I put these?" Yeva asked looking at Melanie.
"Oh! It's a surprise. Give me the rest of the things, and pick up my Melanie. Follow me." Patrick told her. Yeva thought it was sweet the way he had said that.
As Yeva picked up ‘Patrick's' Melanie, and followed Patrick upstairs, she was trying to figure what this surprise could be.
"Here open the door over here on my left…please?" Patrick asked her because his hands were full. As Yeva walked around Patrick and opened the door, she stopped in the doorway. Inside the room was a baby's room. It had white walls, with Whiney the Pooh theme. Inside was a crib, rocking chair, a dresser, and a whole lot more.
"What the hell is all this?" Yeva asked looking at Patrick shocked. Josh had made a nice room for Melanie but not this nice.
"Well, I knew someway, and somehow I was gonna get you, and my baby back, so I prepared." Patrick said giving Yeva and Melanie a kiss.
"Wow! This is really nice! I can't believe this! When did you do this?" Yeva asked still trying to think clearly.
"I did when I came back a few days ago. I mean I had all the stuff ordered and delivered when you were pregnant....but I wasn't home to arrange it. I never told ANYONE! Not even Michael. He thinks this is a storage room. I never told him what it really was." Patrick said putting Melanie's suitcase down.
"Oh! Look over here!" Patrick said pointing to a door remembering.
"What? What is it?" Yeva asked still trying to think.
"Go look, You will see." Patrick said taking Melanie from Yeva with a huge grin.
Yeva slowly walked over to the door, and opened it. On the other side of the door was another bedroom with a big bed, and in the corner was a bassinet, white with a very light pink ribbon on it. "What is this?" Yeva asked looking at Patrick surprised again.
"That is our room....I mean if you want to...ya know share a room...otherwise I can sleep in my old room." Patrick said shyly. Yeva was still taking it all in so she didn't reply. Patrick was uneasy with the silence so he quickly remembered and said,
"Oh oh and over in the corner is a bassinet for Melanie. Ya know...so, we don't have to get up, and get her at night, or if we want to just check on her….I put her room right next to ours." Patrick finished saying shyly as he walked into the room.
"Whoa! I can't believe this! Patrick, you obviously was going to fight for me and Melanie…weren't you?" Yeva asked walking over to the bed.
"Yes, Yeva. I love you and Melanie so much, I couldn't just give up with out a fight. You two our my life, I can't live with out either of you." Patrick said as Yeva sat down next to him. Patrick had laid Melanie in her crib before he walked into the room.
"Oh, Patrick, I love you so much! Thank you so much. I can't believe this....." Yeva said as she passionately kissed Patrick.
"Well, I love both of you dearly…Im not about to loose you, or her…AGAIN." Patrick replied a little shy.
"Hey I gotta idea...why don't you go bring Melanie in here and we can lay her between us and just talk as we watch her..." Yeva suggested.
"Okay...." Patrick said getting up not really understanding where Yeva was going with this, and he walked out and got Melanie then returned.. Yeva just laid down on the pillow. Patrick laid Melanie in the middle of both he and Yeva.
After a minute or so, Patrick had to ask, "Umm honey why did you want to lay down with Melanie between us?"
"So, if she goes to sleep, I can lay her over here in her bassinet or in her crib..., then we can have some time to ourselves." Yeva answered with a sexy smirk.
"Ooooh! Please go to sleep baby!" Patrick said with a light laugh. Yeva just laughed at that remark. She thought it was sweet.
"Patrick…she wont go to sleep on command, it takes her a while to go to sleep." Yeva replied with a laugh.
"Oh....ok. Well, the wait will be with it. Besides, I enjoy her and having her lay there." Patrick answered happily. Yeva and Patrick just were silent most of the time. Patrick would lovingly stroke his little baby or hold her hand. Yeva couldn't believe how good he was with Melanie! Josh had always been so jittery and nervous. Patrick was careful but really loving. How well that applied to sex boggled her mind! After about an hour or so, Melanie finally fell asleep.
"Spiss...You want to put her in her bedroom? So….umm, we don't wake her?" Patrick whispered and hesitated to add his last comment.
"Yeah, ok." Yeva answered him with a reassuring smile. So, Patrick got Melanie, and took her in her room. Quietly he closed the door, and then ran over to the bed, where Yeva laid looking at him with a that same sexy smile....
Edited by: JsJuliet at: 2/26/03 11:37:16 pm
Patrick couldn’t wait to jump on the bed and be with Yeva, he had just waited to be able to see her again let alone hold her or anything else. When Patrick got on the bed Yeva put her arms around him and frenched him. Patrick was just wanting to cuddle and he thought that’s what Yeva had been hinting at earlier, but he didn’t mind this either...or so he thought....
Before Patrick could catch his breath or say anything Yeva laid down and pulled him on top of her as she continued to kiss him intensely. After a few minutes and Yeva trying to pull off his shirt Patrick didn’t know why but he felt he had to stop.
“Yeva....mmm....Yeva stop.” Patrick said as he pulled away from her and sat up.
“What? What’s wrong?” Yeva asked confused as she caught her breath.
Patrick looked at her and thought how happy he was to have such a beautiful woman...but it didn’t feel right...
“Yeva....I...I...could we just cuddle?” Patrick asked nervously. Yeva gave him one of her ‘your crazy’ looks and didn’t mean to but blurted out, “Why?”
Patrick’s eyes got big....now he realized why he wasn’t sure about this, did she just want him for sex or for more?
“Because I’m just...I just want to hold you today....I’m not in the mood.” Patrick lied quickly. Actually like any male presented with the opportunity he was pretty horny! But holding her wasn’t bad....he honestly wanted that almost more then the other.
Yeva gave him another funny look and then said, “Okay...whatever you want.” Patrick had laid down on his side and Yeva laid down by him as he put his arms around her and kissed her gently.
Patrick decided a few things as he held Yeva. First off he wouldn’t sleep with her until/if they were married. He also decided he was going to show her actual love, not just sex or an exciting affair. He just held her until they both fell asleep (it was about 5pm.)
Yeva wondered why Patrick wouldn’t sleep with her. Was it because she was unattractive to him now? Was he using her for Melanie? What the hell did he want!? She pulled away when he kissed her and she wouldn’t kiss him or cuddle him. That made Patrick think she was angry at him...
As Patrick slept he had a dream about Yeva:
(this is pats dream) Patrick dreamed he had cooked Yeva dinner and they were sitting and eating. It seemed really romantic and he got down on his knee and decided to propose. Yeva just gave him the look she had given him earlier and looked disgusted. “What’s wrong Yeva?” Patrick asked sadly as she rejected him. Yeva stood up and said, “Well first off I cheated on you with Billy because you wouldn’t sleep with me, and second we’re having a baby, besides your just a fling to me!!!” Then she left.
(end of pats dream)
As Yeva slept she also dreamt.
(Yeva's dream) In Yeva’s dream her and Patrick were sitting and cuddling. Then all of a sudden Melanie crawled over. Patrick got up and picked Melanie up and then threw a ring back at Yeva. “Why are you divorcing me?” Yeva asked sadly. Patrick just turned back and sneered, “I don’t need YOU I have my Melanie...that’s all I ever wanted!” and then he left.
(end of Yeva's dream)
Just as both they got to that point in their dreams they woke up to crying. They both jumped up thinking they were still in their dreams and seen Lou holding their baby up like a doll.
“Patrick what the @#%$ is this?” Lou asked angrily as Melanie cried.
Patrick put his glasses on and quickly jumped out (he was just in his pants) and took Melanie from Lou. He held her like a baby should be held and Melanie quickly calmed down as she seen her daddy.
Yeva had just sat up in the bed.
Lou turned on the lights and looked at the baby then in the bed.
“Patrick may I have a baby-less word with you?
Patrick was busy calming Melanie down and looked up as Lou said that.
“Oh umm sure Lou just a sec.” Patrick said as he kissed Melanie’s forehead as she cooed happily being in her daddy’s arms. Patrick reluctantly walked over to Yeva and gently handed her Melanie. Yeva just looked at the baby coldly which upset Patrick but he had to go talk to Lou first. Patrick just kissed Melanie again and then walked out with Lou out to the living room.
“Patrick....” Lou said before he could finish Patrick interuptted.
“Sir...listen...let me explain please?” Patrick pleaded.
“I’m waiting...” Lou says. But right as Patrick was about to explain Lou pulled a piece of paper out of his pocket and thrusts it in his face.
“See this?” Lou asked as Patrick tried to read it.
“Kinda...” Patrick responded, it was true he couldn’t read it.
“It says I will let you live in MY house for free and room and board is free, and I will be your manager and you will have a record deal as long as you keep following the regulations in this contract. Now right here...see?” Lou said pointing to a small part, “It says you are NOT allowed to have any children or families without my permission or you are in breach of contract and ow me $25,000.” Lou finished.
Patrick looked in horror at that. Without his job he couldn’t get a new house or have money for one. Lou owned him, in fact once he lost his job $30,000 was all he would have left, leaving only $5,000 after paying for the fee. Patrick had never had a job in his life other then this band. He barely had finished high school! It was only a few days after he graduated that Michael told him about the ‘new guy and his friend who want to start a band.’ Patrick had no clue what to do.
“Well what the hell are those 2 people? FAMILY AS IN WIFE AND DAUGHTER!” Lou shouted at Patrick.
Patrick could lie and give his daughter a good near future, but Lou would know eventually...
“No...that’s my daughter and girlfriend.” Patrick said sadly.
“I want you out by 10 tonight! You’re fired! I’ll give you your $5,000 when you leave.” Lou said coldly. He hadn’t recognized Yeva or Melanie.
Lou walked off and Patrick started walking back to the room but then turned and went to the kitchen and picked up the phone.
He dialed and then said, “Mommy?”
“Hi Pattycakes how’s my little boy?” Answered his mother on the other end.
“Not so good, I just got fired...listen could me and my umm girlfriend stay with you guys tell I get back on my feet.” Betty (Pat’s mom’s name) knew about what Lou would do if Patrick was fired.
“Umm sure baby. When you coming?” she asked.
“Tonight, about midnight by the time we get there. I got a big surprise for you and you gotta promise you’ll love it.” Patrick said remembering his precious Melanie.
“Okay I will...you go pack and get up here k?” she replied.
“Yes mom, bye.” Patrick said as he hung up then he went back into Yeva’s room. He almost made it but he stopped in the nursery and looked at all the stuff he had just promised Melanie and Yeva, and now he had to take it away, so they could go live in his mom’s huge house (he’d bought her one) in one or 2 rooms....they didn’t deserve that. He was supposed to be Yeva’s prince charming, but he had let his Cinderella down. He remembered how her and Josh’s apartment had looked when he was over there, and now they were almost back down to that. He walked back out of the nursery and picked up the phone again.
“Hello?” asked a man in a British accent.
“Hey Johnnie it’s Pat! I’m free from Lou...you think you could take me on?” Patrick asked a little to hopingly.
“Well...it would be big news over in Germany...but you know...we could start ya out in America, no one knows of Natural over here! You could be bigger then John Mayner! I’ll call my lawyer and we’ll sign a contract tomorrow how’s that sound?” asked the man now named Johnnie.
Patrick felt SO relieved. He calmed himself and said, “Sounds great....oh and umm...my personal life doesn’t matter does it? As long as it don’t interfere with my work right?” Patrick had to know...he couldn’t afford to get his hopes up.
“Oh good lord Lou found out that you were gay? Listen I don’t care just keep your hands off of me and your boyfriends outta the public eye. I mean Avril was a man and look what wonders we did with her/him!” Johnnie responded seriously.
“Johnnie!” Patrick gasped, “I’m not gay! I have a w..wife and a daughter.”
“Oh well...no matter just lie and say your single! Just lie and say its your sister and niece...” Johnnie said matter of factly.
“Umm Johnnie...no one is going to believe a black woman is my sister.” Patrick said sadly.
“Well jeesh anything more to add to it?” Johnnie asked a bit annoyed at all the revelations.
“She used to be Josh’s wife....fans in Germany might know that.” Patrick said worriedly.
“Okay listen buddy....just say she’s your makeup manager or something, and that’s HER daughter and never kiss either in public, now anything else?”
“Do you still want to sign me?” Patrick asked shyly.
“Yes...now just meet me tomorrow at noon in umm...where will you be?” Johnnie asked.
“I’ll be in Atlanta, Georgia.” Patrick replied happily.
“Okay I’ll meet ya at your house, I have your address on file.” Johnnie said.
“Okay thank you so much!” Patrick said excitedly.
“Your welcome, now I must go Avril is here and he gets bitchy when I make him wait to long!” Johnnie said as they said their goodbyes.
Just as Patrick hung up he turned around and bumped right into Yeva.
Katie aka
*Kalliope Star Anise*
http://www.geocities.com/kalliopeofficialsite
Re: Behind closed doors....
"Patrick whats going on?" Yeva asked a bit concerned.
"Okay good and bad news...Lou fired me and we have to leave...and I'm sooo sorry! But don't worry we just have to stay at my mom's for a few nights and I called Johnnie ya know the exec at Virgin Records? Well I'm signing a contract with him tomorow! So it'll be okay..."
"O...kay...I guess thats okay." Yeva said as Patrick breathed a sigh of relief. He was worried she'd be upset with him. He bent down and kissed Yeva passionalty (She was shorter then J ) when he realized Melanie wasn't with her.
"Honey...where's my Melanie?"
"I left her in the bassinet." Yeva said matter of factly. Patrick ran like a bat outta hell back to the nursery and picked his baby up outta the bassinet.
"Yeva you can't just leave her alone like that!" Patrick scolded. Yeva just gave him a dirty look, "I've raised her for 4 months I think I'm capable."
Patrick didn't want to fight, he just sighed and said, "Fine okay sorry lets just pack and get on our way."
The roadtrip to Atlanta was hell. For the first hour Patrick and Yeva barely talked and Melanie just slept.
"Yeva...you do want to be with me right? I don't want to make you do anything you don't want." Patrick asked hesitantly, he was afraid what her answer would be.
"Yeah Patrick I do. It's just been a long week...I'll be okay I just ya know gotta settle after the storm."
"Okay...well I don't want to rush anything I mean even though I'm gonna have to work and stuff I want to be able to go out and stuff...I could hire my mom to come help us with Melanie on the road...if you want and all."
"Yeah that'll be fine...or maybe Melanie could just stay with your mom..." Yeva offered a bit hopingly. She loved her daughter but she was in no shape to be a mother yet and she knew it.
"Are you kidding?" Patrick asked as he laughed, "I don't want to let Melanie outta my site anymore! I love her...and I love you..."
"I love you too..." Yeva said. It felt right but something was holding her back.
When the family arrived at Patrick's mom's house it was a little after midnight. Yeva and Patrick hadn't talked much after that convo, just sat and thought. Patrick was worried Yeva didn't want him and didn't know what she wanted. Yeva was worried Patrick didn't want her and only wanted Melanie.
Patrick carried their bags and Yeva carried Melanie up to the front door.
"Patrick...I'm kinda nervous about this..." Yeva admitted right before he rang the doorbell.
"Why? Don't worry my mom will love you and Melanie!" Patrick said excitdly. Everything felt so right...he was just scared and nervous and excited in one.
"Patrick? PATRICK!" Betty said excitdly as she answered the door to find her son and a woman holding what looking like a doll in a blanket.
"Mom! Hey! Oh here this is..." Patrick started as his mom interuptted with, "Oh come in come in." She had fallen asleep on the couch and was still a little tired so she didn't fully realize who Yeva was or what she was holding.
After they came in Patrick continued, "Mom this is my girlfriend Yeva, and our daughter Melanie Lynn."
Betty's eyes got HUGE at the word 'our daughter.'
"Patrick...how come you didn't tell me?!?" Betty asked excited and shocked all at once as she looked at the little baby girl sleeping peacefully in Yeva's arms.
"Well...long story but yeah shes 4 months old isn't she beautiful?" Patrick asked thrilled as he took her from Yeva's arms.
"She is Oh she looks just like you dear!" Betty said as she looked up at Yeva from the baby. "Oh and she has her daddy's eyes! She's beautiful!"
"Yeah...so where you want us to sleep tonight?" Patrick asked as he looked lovingly at his baby.
"Oh I don't get to hold her first?" Betty asked teasingly as Patrick relented and let his mom hold his baby. Yeva was just standing there looking half asleep. She felt good but she was still worrying and so much was running through her mind.
"Do you guys want something to eat? I can make you up some dinner." Betty offered.
"Nah I'm fine, what about you honey?" Patrick asked Yeva. She wasn't used to giving her opinion, if her and J had gone on a trip like that to see Mrs. Horn he would have just spoken for her at that question.
"No I'm...I'm fine just really tired."
"Oh of course alright follow me..." Betty said as she started walking towards the stairs to lead them to their room.
"I wish you would have told me you had a baby! I don't even have a crib!" Betty said sadly as she looked into the room where her son and his family could sleep.
"It's okay I packed one, screw Lou he wasn't getting it!" Patrick said. He sat the suitcases down and headed out for the crib.
After all that was set up and Melanie was peacefully sleeping in her crib everyone headed to bed themselves.
Yeva had laid down while Patrick went to change and freshen up. When he came back he laid down beside her and put his arms around her.
"Mmm you alright honey? I don't know I kinda get the feeling your not happy..." Patrick said as he rubbed her sides and cuddled with her.
"Yeah I'm fine...just a lot going on really I'll be okay...so...I guess that 'lets cuddle' thing still applies?" Yeva asked teasingly. She had never felt that way with J but just the way Patrick was treating her made her want to be with him even more.
"Yeah it is...I want to have a good relationship and I don't want it to be about all that..." Patrick laughed a little, "Besides I already know how good we are together at that, I want to see how good we are together in general..."
Yeva sighed a little, she wasn't sure she believed him, mostly because she had made up lame excuses to J about not sleeping together and he had always bought them, she was worried Patrick felt that way about her like she had felt about J.
"Okay...I understand. Night."
"I love you...night..." Patrick said, he was hoping to get a 'love you' in return but nothing. He just held on to her anyways and fell asleep though he was really hurt.
Yeva felt bad...she was a mess she knew it but she wanted to do Patrick right and not get hurt in the process, somehow she felt it would be more complicated then it sounded.
*Noon*
Yeva woke up feeling very refreshed. She had just felt so good sleeping and didn't really remember any dreams. She rubbed her eyes thinking it had to be around 8 AM and Melanie would probably wake her and Patrick up soon. Thats when she realized no ones arms were around here. She rubbed her eyes and looked on the clock...it was 1PM! She hadn't slept that long in...forever! When her and J were together Melanie would wake up at 4am and J would still be sleeping, and make her get up with the baby.
Yeva sat up and looked around, no sign of Patrick or Melanie. She decided to get up and get a shower then talk with him more.
Earlier that day Patrick had woke up around 6 AM. He liked getting up early and figured it would be just more time to spend with his new gf and baby. Melanie was awake but happily cooing away in her crib. Yeva looked so peaceful he didn't bother waking her. He just got up, picked up his daughter and headed downstairs.
After changing her and feeding her the 2 sat watching Teletubbies. Melanie liked the pretty colors and sounds so she sat happily on her daddy's lap cooing and giggling at the show. Patrick just sat and smiled holding her, he loved it! Eventually the 2 fell asleep in the rocking chair and Patrick was reawoke at noon to his mom shaking his shoulder gently.
***Dont add yet (like anyone would anyways lol) I need sleepies I'll add more tomorow!***
~RIP JENNY BABY *4/25/03* You were always an angel, and now your home~ Song of the Day:
Re: Behind closed doors....
*lol feels like Homer when he 'painted' the garage LOL! I just felt bad writing it on J's bday lol so lets see what i can come up with today...*
"Honey wake up..."
"Huh wha?" Patrick said as he jumped awake, it didn't bother Melanie though she was sound asleep.
"Some Johnnie guy is at the door for you."
"Oh oh okay here," Patrick said as he handed Melanie to his mom, "watch her for a second."
"Patrick finally! I got the contract ready and everything just sign here." Johnnie said as he handed over a pen and a piece of paper with so much writting it almost looked like one of Lou's contracts.
"Fine." Patrick said as he signed it without thinking twice.
"Great! Come to my room at the Marriot suite 4 and we'll talk out our plan to make you a solo star!" And after a shake of the hands Johnnie left as fast as he had come.
Yeva meanwhile had been hiding upstairs trying to think through everything. She wanted to talk to Patrick but it took a lot of courage from her that she just didn't have right now. After another 10 minutes thinking intensily she finally got the courage up to find him and talk with him.
"Yeva!" Patrick said as he seen her come down the stairs. He ran to meet her and hugged her and kissed her excitedly.
"Guess what!"
"Wha...what?" Yeva asked.
"I just signed with Johnnie Wright! I'm gonna start working with him tomorrow!" The look on Patrick's face melted Yeva's heart and she found all she could say was,
"Oh honey thats great!"
"Yeah I know now I can get Melanie and you that home and oh man things will be good again!"
Yeva just nodded reluctantly.
Over the next year things really started picking up for Patrick. He wrote and recorded his own album in 6 months and Johnnie spent another long 6 months putting together everything for his 'plan'. It was hard on Yeva, they still lived with Betty and she barely seen Patrick which meant she was left to raise Melanie. She hadn't wanted to do that in the first place but what else could she do? Betty helped when she could but there wasn't much she could do because she was busy working herself. Yeva just kept her mouth shut and went on as she could until Patrick came home one day and announced his promotion plans.
"I got great news! Okay Johnnie scheduled a 6 week promotion tour for me and mom you can come to help out with things and watch Melanie, and Yeva you can come and help with wardrobe and make up."
"Well honey I havent really been in that game, why can't I just come to watch Melanie?" Yeva asked.
"Umm...well Johnnie thinks it would be better if people thought I was single and..."
Yeva's went cold, they had been dating almost 2 years now (counting the affair time) and he had to hide her?
"Fine...but only until the promotion is over..."
"Oh your so understand I love you!" Patrick said as he reached down and hugged her, he was so exicted he didn't notice how upset she was.
The promotion tour went very well. 3 weeks passed and Patrick had topped the charts and was in high demand everywhere. Yeva had been waiting for the final day, nothing hurt her more then being in the hotel room doing his hair and make up while he told an interviewer he was single.
It was midnight and Yeva had been waiting all day for him to do his final stop, a quick performance for a radio show concert.
"Hey!" She said as he finally came in looking exhausted but excited.
"Hey honey!" Patrick took his coat off and came to sit by her on the bed.
He started to kiss her but she stopped him, "So whats the new schedule?"
"Oh um were releasing the CD the first week next month and then I'm going to tour!"
"Oh thats good...so what do you have to do for tomorrow?"
"Well Johnnie said I can have the week off..." Patrick started as Yeva interuppted him,
"Great! Now we can go out to that restraunt and maybe do a little site seeing..." She smiled hoping he would agree.
"Honey you know I can't do that...Johnnie doesn't want them to know..."
Yeva just got off the bed quietly as he said that and headed for the door.
"Honey where are you going?" Patrick quickly got up to chase after her.
"Patrick I'm sick of this! I'm not going to be your dirty little secret again and remember our deal?"
"What deal?" Patrick asked frantically, he did love her and he didn't want her to leave him.
"I said I'd pretend for you during the promo tour but that was IT!"
"Yeva please..." Patrick pleaded, he was only doing this for her and Melanie, to give them a good life and home.
"No I've had enough I'm not hiding behind closed doors for you anymore!"
And with that she left.
~RIP JENNY BABY *4/25/03* You were always an angel, and now your home~ Song of the Day:
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