In the Shadows

He continued to play after a moment, after he had stopped and thought about it. Then he started again.
" you don't believe you're real
you don't think you can feel
you'll leave me all alone
with only.. only your dial.. tone..
to remember you by...
you think you're cool and aloof
no one ever sees inside of you
you even guard your happiest smile..
thinking I can't see through the mask
I care but you make me leave so fast
can't you just tell the truth?
that here's fear behind your eyes
and truth behind your lies

you don't believe you're real
you don't think you can feel
you'll leave me all alone
with only that damn dial tone
to remember you by

why won't you talk to me
don't tell me to go away
I want to stay and see
how real we can really be
don't tell me to go away
I won't leave until you stay

you don't believe you're ever real
never think maybe you can feel
you're walking out and I'm all alone
with only your damn dial tone
to remember...

remember your light and your grace
the darkness in that place
where you showed me violence I didn't see
coming
where you made me think
I'm not real too
or at least not as rela as you..."

He did the chorus a couple more times and stopped, sytill thinking. What to sing next? He moved to the piano, setting the guitar down. He was jsut going to sing a melody in his head. Whatever words came out...

"it's your fault
I don't trust girls
it's your fault
I'm lost in this world
it's your fault
I'm all alone in this place
and it's your fault
one day I'll lose my face

it's your fault I can't see through my eyes
always your fault
my soul met demise
it's really your fault
my nightmares came true
even though my dream
was always of you

and it's your fault
I lost my my sight
and it's your fault
I can't feel light
and it's your fault...."
His vocie had truly gained emotion int his song, a raw unhappiness and barely-hidden almost-hatred that was consuming him from the sound of it. Soemthing he never let out.
"it's your fault
I don't believe in her voice
and it's your fault
I lost that choice
and it's still your fault
that nothing's all minbe
always your fault
I'm lost in time

and it's your fault
I lost my my sight
and it's your fault
I can't feel light
and it's your fault....

it's your fault
I still see blue
but it's my fault
for blaming you...."

With that he frowned and flexed his finger.s Staring down at the keys. What had jsut come out of him?

OOC:The two songs in this post are copyrighted me. "For Matt" and "Your Fault" respectivly.

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can't you just tell the truth
that there's fear behind your eyes
and truth behind your lies
-From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)

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yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 144 (9/7/01 11:07 pm) Reply	In the Shadows OOC: YOu can rpetty much ignore this if you want. I'm REALLY tired and sick and just want to TYPE so I thought I'd do this for a bit. K? Cool.... Just a note: Only one of the songs he sings won't be original. IC: Nikke was by himself again. he'd wandered off, and sat alone in one of the practice rooms. They all had a piano in them, sometimes out of tune but always good enough for what you were doing. He'd brought a guitar he'd bought with some money he made when he'd worked at the local sushi place downtown. He smiled and sat by himself. They said the practice rooms were soundproof, but in all honesty they really weren't. Nikke strummed the guitar a little, thinking of what to sing. " Memories are just where you laid them drag the waters till the depths give up their dead what did you expect to find was there something you left behind don't you remember anything I said when I said Don't fall away and leave me to myself don't fall away and leave love bleeding in my hands in my hands again and leave love bleeding in my hands in my hands again love lies bleeding" His voice was getitng more raw, mroe full of emotion, a low throaty singing voice that could only be really described as emotional... "oh hold me now I feel contagious am I the only place you've left to go she cries her life is like some movie black and white dead actors faking lines over and over and over again she cries don't fall away and leave me to myself don't fall away and leave love bleeding in my hands in my hands again and leave love bleeding in my hands in my hands love lies bleeding and I wanted you turned away you don't remember but I do you never even tried.. don't fall away... and leave me to myself don't fall away and leave love bleeding in my hands in my hands again.. leave love bleeding in my hands.. in my hands... love.. lies.. bleeding..." He stopped, to rest for a moment, and tyhink of what to play next. ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?) Edited by: yuuisandrsun at: 9/7/01 11:25:37 pm
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 145 (9/7/01 11:18 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows He continued to play after a moment, after he had stopped and thought about it. Then he started again. " you don't believe you're real you don't think you can feel you'll leave me all alone with only.. only your dial.. tone.. to remember you by... you think you're cool and aloof no one ever sees inside of you you even guard your happiest smile.. thinking I can't see through the mask I care but you make me leave so fast can't you just tell the truth? that here's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies you don't believe you're real you don't think you can feel you'll leave me all alone with only that damn dial tone to remember you by why won't you talk to me don't tell me to go away I want to stay and see how real we can really be don't tell me to go away I won't leave until you stay you don't believe you're ever real never think maybe you can feel you're walking out and I'm all alone with only your damn dial tone to remember... remember your light and your grace the darkness in that place where you showed me violence I didn't see coming where you made me think I'm not real too or at least not as rela as you..." He did the chorus a couple more times and stopped, sytill thinking. What to sing next? He moved to the piano, setting the guitar down. He was jsut going to sing a melody in his head. Whatever words came out... "it's your fault I don't trust girls it's your fault I'm lost in this world it's your fault I'm all alone in this place and it's your fault one day I'll lose my face it's your fault I can't see through my eyes always your fault my soul met demise it's really your fault my nightmares came true even though my dream was always of you and it's your fault I lost my my sight and it's your fault I can't feel light and it's your fault...." His vocie had truly gained emotion int his song, a raw unhappiness and barely-hidden almost-hatred that was consuming him from the sound of it. Soemthing he never let out. "it's your fault I don't believe in her voice and it's your fault I lost that choice and it's still your fault that nothing's all minbe always your fault I'm lost in time and it's your fault I lost my my sight and it's your fault I can't feel light and it's your fault.... it's your fault I still see blue but it's my fault for blaming you...." With that he frowned and flexed his finger.s Staring down at the keys. What had jsut come out of him? OOC:The two songs in this post are copyrighted me. "For Matt" and "Your Fault" respectivly. ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 184 (9/8/01 5:47 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows :Sofia listened intently to Nikke's singing.Smiling to herself.She stood at the doorway and clapped when the song ended.: Sofia:You have a beautiful voice you know. :Sofia walked over to Nikke a placed her head on his shoulder: Sofia:Sing again. No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 147 (9/8/01 9:20 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows His head jerked up, hi hands freezing for a second and he stared at her, pale-faced, the whites of his eyes showing. Them he blushed bright red and looked down, smiling faintly., He hadn't thought anyone was listening.. no one usually came down here when he did. "N-Not ruh-really," He said, stammering, unable to keep himself from it, angry at himself for doing it. "I mena, -I- don't, uhm, th-think so..." He blinked, at her asking him to sing something else, and considered that. Picking up his guitar again, thinking. When he started singing, he voice started out softer, strained, nervous.. pretty soon, though, he forgot Sofia was there and his song got stronger.Or maybe he just got more confident she wouldn't laugh... or forget... "They painted up your secrets With the lies they told you And the least they ever gave you Was the most you ever knew And I wonder where these dreams go When the world gets in your way What's the point in all this screaming No one's listening anyway You voice is small and fading And you hide in here unknown And your mother loves your father 'Cause she's got nowhere to go And she wonders where these dreams go 'Cause the world got in her way What's the point in ever trying Nothing's changing anyway They press their lips against you And you love the lies they say And I tried so hard to reach you But you're falling anyway And you know I see right through you When the world gets in your way What's the point in all the screaming You're not listening anyway " He stopped, paused, and looked at her, with a faint smile, the eyes of a little kid who wants only to please and really isn't sure how to. ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 198 (9/9/01 11:40 am) Reply	Re: In the Shadows Sofia:Those songs are sad.... No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 157 (9/9/01 8:10 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows "I'm sorry." He frowned, looking down at the ground, almost ashamed that he wasn't a perpetually cheerful person. "I could find a cheerful song, I bet.. I mean... uhm..." He was almost blushing, hands awkwardly strumming guitar strings and pressing piano notes without thinking, just giving his hands something to do. "I... there're stacks of music there..." He smiles, faintly."Or you could sing...." Softly. He's sure she'd know more happy songs... ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 201 (9/9/01 9:10 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows :Sofia walked over to the window.She was quiet for a moment.She then sat on the piano bench and started to play the piano.She then sang for the first time in front of someone in a long time: Somewhere in the world Somewhere in the dark I can hear the voice that calls my name Might be a memory Might be my future Might be a love waiting for me Rock me gently Hold me tenderly 'Til the morning breaks, night fades away I've spent my time in vain Trapped inside pain Don't let me down Help me see the light Feeling Feeling bitter, twisted all along Wading through an empty life too long I close my eyes Listen to the wind Longing to belong to a higher place Let me hear your voice Let me be with you When the shadow falls down upon me Like a bird singing Like a breeze blowing It's calling me Somewhere in the world Somewhere in the world.... No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 159 (9/10/01 7:26 am) Reply	Re: In the Shadows Nikke listened, eyes slightly wider than usual, bretah caught for a moment. His hands, usually so awkwardly shifting everywhere, tyring to keep themselves busy,s tilled for a second and he simply listened, finally closing his eyes at the veyr end of the song. It occured to him he probably hadn't taken a breath since she started. ".. that was beautiful..." He spoke shyly, looking to the side and down a little, maybe even blushing a little. ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 206 (9/10/01 5:44 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows :Sofia took a big sigh after the end.She shook her head.It wasn't beautiful to her.....her heart and soul just wasn't in it.And really,she hated it when she sang that song.It reminded her so much of her past.A happy past yet an awful ending...: No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 164 (9/10/01 7:49 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows He shrugs, looking at her, concerned. "It really was," He said, softly. "I'm sorry..." He smiled a little, picking up his guitar again, jsut strumming to himself, nothing in particular, different bits and peices of notes. "I'm sorry all my songs are sad." Lyrics rna through his head and he thought about singing that song but it was sad too. i only know that I can change/everything else jsut stays the same/ ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 211 (9/10/01 9:31 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows :Sofia then relized she wasn't alone.She smiled a little.She walked over behind Nikke and placed her hands over him.Holding him gently: Sofia:I'm not sorry......I'm hungry want to go eat? No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 170 (9/10/01 9:51 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows Nikke.... well, with anyone else he would have jerked awya, looked at them with almost frightened surprise as to why they would bother to hold him, would ask them what theyw ere REALLY doin, what they REALLY wanted, and when they were REALLY going to walk out on him. With Sofia he relaxed into it after a moment of hesitation, and shrugged. "Sur.e If you do." He seemed to be getting closer and closer to her and he wasn't entirely sure why. But it was all right. it even felt good sometimes.. a lot of the time... hell, eveyr single second he was WITH her felt good.... "Where?" ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 216 (9/10/01 11:36 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows Sofia:nods headso....you tell me.I don't really know where to eat.New here remember. :Sofia let go of Nikke and walked around till she was in front of him.She yawned and rubbed her eyes.Sofia sat on the floor beside Nikke.She placed her head in his lap.: Sofia:I'm also sleepy.But I want to eat first.lifts headSo let's go.Ya? No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 171 (9/11/01 8:08 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows He swallowed a lump as she put her head in his lap, thinking that over. He.. wasn't used to people being so.. familiar around him. So.. comfortable. But yhe just smiled, and stood, helping her up as well. "Well... we could go to the cafe down at the end of the block. It's near my.. my uhm apartment building. It's got some good food.... the mushrooms are the, uh, the best in my opinion..." He realized how much he was talking, smiled shyly, and promptly shut up. ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 219 (9/11/01 9:34 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows :Sofia smiled as well.She noticed Nikke smiling so much.She just acted like she didn't noticed though: Sofia kay...let's go. No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 177 (9/12/01 7:25 am) Reply	Re: In the Shadows He walked quickly, although stilll slowing himself down from time to time for ehr to castch up. He was rather happy with himself, apparently today would be a good day. Th cafe he went to a lot was just down the street from the school, and a couple of people even recognized him. He smield shyly in greeting to them and pointed up at menu. "You cna get what.. whatever you want. I'll pay...." ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 223 (9/12/01 5:09 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows :Sofia smiled a gentle smile at Nikke.She then looked at the menu pondering what should she get.: Sofia:Hmm...let's see.....I think I'll just get the chicken soup and some tea.If that's alright with you Nikke. No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 179 (9/12/01 8:28 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows "Of course." In a soft, hesitant voice he he himself gave the waiter an order for a cafe latte and a chicken salad sandwich, please. The wiate rnodded at them both, smiling at the young couple, and turned to go place their order. Nikke.. most likely extremely nervously, never took his sunglasses off once in there. They stayed on, though some people have him odd looks. "I get weird feelings these days.. this horrible coldness in my chest.." ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 228 (9/12/01 11:53 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows Sofia:A cold feeling right?A feeling of something missing...something gone.A vague feeling....I've felt like that.So many times. No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter
yuuisandrsun Digital World Visitor Posts: 182 (9/13/01 7:32 am) Reply	Re: In the Shadows "Sometimes I think... it's not soemthing gone. Sometimes.. it's something tyring to slip back into place, I think.." He frowned, thinking this over, eyes gone all squinty. "Something that shouldn't have been there in the first place." He shrugged, and the waiter brought him hi cafe latte and Sofia her drink. He sucked down the coffee like water, smiling. Felt good to have some caffeine. He hadn't been sleeping well for days... ------------------------------- can't you just tell the truth that there's fear behind your eyes and truth behind your lies -From 'For Matt' a song written by me. (about guess who?)
Sofia Starwing Digital World Visitor Posts: 231 (9/13/01 5:05 pm) Reply	Re: In the Shadows :Sofia poured two packets of sugar into her ice tea.Stirring it slowly with one hand as the other one was under her chin.She wasn't watching herself stirring her ice tea.She was looking out of the window.Watching as a young couple walked by smiling.Then two women talking to eachother about the proposal the other just got.It reminded Sofia so much of her when she was a little younger.Sofia rubbed her wedding finger.There was a mark there where a ring once was worn.But now...gone.But Sofia pushed it out of her mind and remembered how nice Nikke was to pay for their meals.The waiter came and brought their meals.Sofia stirred her soup a little and smiled at Nikke: Sofia:So what do you want to do after this?Actually during this whole time I've been here I've wanted to go see this rose garden.I've heard about it.It was in the park or something.. No one who loves is a complete fool.Or if so, it is a divine foolishness.-Ganscotter

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