In the beginning..

Wolves and dragons have always been in my life, though horses were my first love.

My gramp put me up on horse back one day, when I was like barely two years old, and instead of squealing in fright, I clung to the horse saying like, ride pony or something like that. ^.^

I have been drawing and stduying dragons since I was very small, and wolves were something me and my sister "played" when we rough-housed.

But, with human society as it is today in many of the more industrialized countries, some things are just not "suitable" for "proper behavior". So it was many many years before my abstract-thinking mind realized that something was "out of place" within me. With teen angst far from my thoughts, and having survived the "High School Dramas", growing to a deeper person.., I began to wonder more about who I was and why I was here. You know all that deep philosophical silliness that hits us every now and then.

Study of shapeshifters, werewolves, and vampires, lead to me to places where some of the things were "real life" stories. Of course many of these I scoffed at, thinking these people needed help and all.., but something more, deeper inside of me, took intrest and sat up to "listen".

I found a group of poeple who were more into the "philosphical" aspect and the more intellecutal aspect of all this. Almost all of those others who had "real life" expereinces, made my stomach queasy in that way that those types of weird-o bums off the street who talk to themselves make ya feel. Not happy with them, so I talked to those who actually had some sceptical side to them.., the ones who are always searching, always questioning.

I was visited by an 'enitity', more then once, so I know from my personal experience that weird spiritual beings do exist.., even though my sceptic brain tells me that I'm being weird-o.

I have studied and am currently studing various religions, belief paths, traditions, and Ways to try and understand the world around me better. I was once taught that every pov has some grain of truth in it. That every story has some basisi in fact. If you compare more then one tale, you can find the similariities, and from these similarities you can discover some tiny grain of what the truth really is..,

With this in mind I seek and search to understand different culutres, religions, paths, choices, decisions, mind-sets, ideas and ideals, mores ( yes that one is pselled ight

) and morals..., etc.

I am a fence sitter, a philoshoper, a questioner, a seeker, a student, an information gatherer...,

I horde knowledge for the sake of knowledge.

I am symbolically attuned to wolf ( I am wolf ), as I am spiritually attuned to dragon.

I still seek. In that seeking I try to make as many friends as possible, for friends tell you things, in in that I learn even more about myself as well as those around me. I become more understanding and compssionate about those I meet, or At least I try to be.

In the beginning there was a darkness, the envelope of naivity. The pain of birth into the light of adult life opend my eyes to how cruel the world is around me. The begininng is always the end of something.., and the end of things always marks the beginning of something new.

^.^

"Feed the hungry with the knowledge of how to care for the Earth, so that the Earth will feed them in return."

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Kao by Naryu

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DragonMistral Fledgling Posts: 12 (4/14/03 3:20 pm) Reply	In the beginning.. ::flops onto a big rock:: Ah, there we go...nice and comfy now... I recognize so many snouts here, but alas I don't know too much history of the spirits...for those who are dragon/gryphon/what-have-you in spirit (I'm assuming that most everyone here is otherkin, therian, or some form of non-human within), how did you find out that you weren't quite like the rest of the individuals within the human society? When did most Awaken, and how did you do so? How did you know you are what you are, and not something like a pegasus or a bird or a lion? For those who have a character, how did you go about creating him/her? Just curious as to how the magnificent beasts here came about ^^ ~Mistral~ "To be a dragon means a great deal to a dragon"
Drakenhart Fledgling Posts: 40 (4/14/03 7:33 pm) Reply	Re: In the beginning.. Wolves and dragons have always been in my life, though horses were my first love. My gramp put me up on horse back one day, when I was like barely two years old, and instead of squealing in fright, I clung to the horse saying like, ride pony or something like that. ^.^ I have been drawing and stduying dragons since I was very small, and wolves were something me and my sister "played" when we rough-housed. But, with human society as it is today in many of the more industrialized countries, some things are just not "suitable" for "proper behavior". So it was many many years before my abstract-thinking mind realized that something was "out of place" within me. With teen angst far from my thoughts, and having survived the "High School Dramas", growing to a deeper person.., I began to wonder more about who I was and why I was here. You know all that deep philosophical silliness that hits us every now and then. Study of shapeshifters, werewolves, and vampires, lead to me to places where some of the things were "real life" stories. Of course many of these I scoffed at, thinking these people needed help and all.., but something more, deeper inside of me, took intrest and sat up to "listen". I found a group of poeple who were more into the "philosphical" aspect and the more intellecutal aspect of all this. Almost all of those others who had "real life" expereinces, made my stomach queasy in that way that those types of weird-o bums off the street who talk to themselves make ya feel. Not happy with them, so I talked to those who actually had some sceptical side to them.., the ones who are always searching, always questioning. I was visited by an 'enitity', more then once, so I know from my personal experience that weird spiritual beings do exist.., even though my sceptic brain tells me that I'm being weird-o. I have studied and am currently studing various religions, belief paths, traditions, and Ways to try and understand the world around me better. I was once taught that every pov has some grain of truth in it. That every story has some basisi in fact. If you compare more then one tale, you can find the similariities, and from these similarities you can discover some tiny grain of what the truth really is.., With this in mind I seek and search to understand different culutres, religions, paths, choices, decisions, mind-sets, ideas and ideals, mores ( yes that one is pselled ight ) and morals..., etc. I am a fence sitter, a philoshoper, a questioner, a seeker, a student, an information gatherer..., I horde knowledge for the sake of knowledge. I am symbolically attuned to wolf ( I am wolf ), as I am spiritually attuned to dragon. I still seek. In that seeking I try to make as many friends as possible, for friends tell you things, in in that I learn even more about myself as well as those around me. I become more understanding and compssionate about those I meet, or At least I try to be. In the beginning there was a darkness, the envelope of naivity. The pain of birth into the light of adult life opend my eyes to how cruel the world is around me. The begininng is always the end of something.., and the end of things always marks the beginning of something new. ^.^ "Feed the hungry with the knowledge of how to care for the Earth, so that the Earth will feed them in return." \| elfwood \| furbid \| lj \| Kao by Naryu
dracothrope Fledgling Posts: 24 (4/15/03 2:32 pm) Reply	Re: In the beginning.. Wow, next to that, I feel kind of silly. Dracothrope was originally invented while I was sitting around with my friends, and doodling pictures of them, as things they'd like to be (or would look funny as), and then noticed that I had none of my own. After smacking on wings, a tail, and big, unoriginal ears, Dracothrope was born. sighs and kind of withered up, as well, because those friends of mine have begun to go a different way. My very first dragon character is still special to me... Banthorya Savatonay. I still remember playing her, and that was about 3 years ago. Like most dragons of the time, she was gold, big, and didn't much care for puny things called humans. I created her solely for Role Play usage (on another ezboard, infact!)... actually, she was my first character, ever. Wow, that's kind of coincidental. All of my RP chars have been created to exist in one world or another, and rarely overstep their boundaries. There are one or two doodles that manage to crop up, and one or two dragons that have managed to get across my silly, mundane-bound brain, but nothing as interesting or provocative as with Drakenhart. I guess I just like the beasties.
Drakenhart Fledgling Posts: 41 (4/15/03 3:55 pm) Reply	Re: In the beginning.. chuckles I can say this when theMuses smack me in the back of the head, I surprise myself as well most times. ^.^ Roleplaying was and still is for many, the doorway to open up to things we cannot normally in real life. In fact, it was roleplaying my first and favortie werewolf charcter, Seben, what taught me how to interact with people. Before that I was more of teh silent "wallflower".., Now ya can't get me to stop talking. raises a toast to roleplay character big and small Hazzah! To the Character what help us to learn more about Life, and give those of us who may be shy a voice to sound big and couragous! ^.^ "Feed the hungry with the knowledge of how to care for the Earth, so that the Earth will feed them in return." \| elfwood \| furbid \| lj \| Kao by Naryu
DragonMistral Fledgling Posts: 14 (4/16/03 8:09 am) Reply	Re: In the beginning.. Ooo..roleplaying is good..I've had three roleplaying dragons that really helped me vent out stresses and yearnings of the draconic-persuasion whilst going through my Awakening ^^ I'm going to share too, since I forgot to in the opening post! My sister and I used to play "animal" all the time, she always being a tiger and I always being either a wolf or a bird of sorts, although wolf was always much more fun to play when it came to tackling and chasing each other around the house on all fours. Wolf slowly turned into dragon around the age of six or seven, since that's when I really began to take a love and interest in dragons. There has always been a sadness within me, a yearning and sorrow for something I couldn't explain or understand. I'd go outside when the sun was setting and feel horribly lonesome, despite my father standing next to me holding my hand, or my sister sitting with me eating grass or whatever it was she liked to eat when she was a toddler. It wasn't until I was eleven or twelve that I discovered the word "nostalgia," and realized that it fit that underlying sadness and longing quite nicely. But what was it that I missed? Nothing in this life, that's for sure..I've always believed in pastlives and reincarnations, and the obsession with dragons had evolved into this sort of kinship, so i came to the conclusion that I was once a dragon, hence the nostalgia. Further contemplations and inner reflections lead me to find out my spiritual identity of a dragon, what my trueform looked/looks like, some of the old memories...etc. Upon entering highschool I was very fortunate to find other therians/otherkins, so my post-Awakening years weren't too difficult for me. Drakenhart, you remind me much of myself! I love to learn of the diversity in culture, religion and philosophy all over the world..I love to collect knowledge and share it with friends, family and whomever else is willing to listen. I've adopted a minor in Philosophy/Theology to appease that urge to think on different and possibly deeper levels, and to compare and contrast all that I find in my studies and whatnot ^^ ~Mistral~ "To be a dragon means a great deal to a dragon"
oneirosuchus Arch(chameleon)Dwaginess Posts: 34 (4/16/03 3:47 pm) Reply	Re: In the beginning.. I think I was fourteen years old when I decided that yes, THIS was what I was, although it took until college to figure out WHO I was. I'd always been the little oddball kid, and knew there was something different in me that set me apart from them, but I never bothered to look for a name. I assumed it was just "shyness," as everyone said, and artsiness. So, despite naming year fourteen as the year of deciding, it was actually quite a gradual process. I honestly don't recall any initial introduction to dragons -- I drew things that looked like dragons when I was grasshopper-sized, though I didn't know what to call them. I'm ... pretty sure that one of McCaffrey's books was the first dragon book I saw, probably DragonSinger, but I remember that I really wasn't all that impressed. I do remember that Ursula leGuin's shortstory "The Rule of Names" was in a middle school lit book, though, and that struck me, and it stuck. So ... middle school through high school, I had a name for what I felt like on the inside. I drew dragons, but I never drew one that I thought was me. The closest I ever came to defining myself was dreaming of golden scales, or bronze... ... and somewhere in there, they turned Green. Not so much for color (though it's true, mostly) as for connotation: green to me is a color symbolic of life, all life, and the interconnectedness of life and the earth. In college, I was introduced to the 'net and the novel and wonderful idea that there were OTHER dragons out there! That began the more intense self-seeking, although in truth, the gist of it wasn't hard. I drew my first depiction of the Green Dragoness in my freshman year of college. Earlier, I had also drawn a gryphon fishing from a half-submerged log, and captioned it "Lyseth Gryph" etc., with intents to write a tale ... but though the story never got anywhere, the name stuck with me, although it wasn't quite right ... it underwent a little change and became Ly'szeth. And so I am. Since then, I've explored and learned and and reached for more, and I will continue this path. Another thing I defined early on was that I was a seeker, in search of the truth in all things. It is not a search with any end in sight, and that is as it should be. -- ~Gweenie Oneirosuchus, the dreaming crocodile (cleverly disguised as an absent-minded chameleonic green dragoness) (lurker extraordinaire) GreenLaire.net \| Elfwood \| LJ
Unakavierde Hatchling Posts: 7 (4/16/03 4:29 pm) Reply	Re: In the beginning.. reads all the previous postings, nodding along with what is said As I am sure most of us can relate to, I never really did feel like I "fit it." When I was in grade school, I would convince my friends to play unicorns or ponies out on the playground. Basically it was just us running around, tossing our "manes" and "trotting." I always have been into mythological animals, and I've always tried to learn about things other people weren't greatly interested in. (until I found the joys of the world wide web, of course...but this is all when I was little, remember? :-)) All of my books, movies, all of the pictures in my room, my bedspread, my curtains....everything depicted some form of mythological creature. I looooove fantasy. When I hit middle school, I spent most of my time on my own. I was 14 years old when I had my first dream featuring Unakavierde. I can still remember everything about it...it was a beautiful dream. I'll spare you all the sappy happy details, but the just of it was that Una showed me a new world...she took me below the water's surface and showed me who I really was. I've had recurring Una dreams as well as ones where she makes a brief appearance. After that, I experienced what some like to call "phantom limbs." Nothing extreme, I just felt like I had horse ears bobbing on top of my head. grins I never actually told anyone about them, I figured it was a normal type thing. The horse has always and will always be my favorite animal...so I figured it was just my imagination. Things progressed, the dreams became more persistant, the feelings began to become more prominent and finally, I accepted it. Una has gone through some minor physical changes over the past 2 and some years...(I only just turned 16 in the beginning of March) but she is still my Una, still me. I don't know what else I can really say, except for without Unakavierde, I'm not sure where I would be right now. - Una These waters are my skies. Thank you Naryu for making mah sig picture ~SHINEY~ and to Tser for my adorable side picture Thank you to the most beautiful souls I have ever had the good fortune to meet... my darling soul sisters... may we never part in the ever changing tides LJ / writings / Bog

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