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xoshi64
X-oshi Hoganteki
The Ghetto Martial Artist

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(11/16/06 10:08 pm)
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My thoughts in text
Can any civilian imagine the amount of stress the military can put on a young man. I think not. But here is a glimpse. Lets say your country is currrently fighting in a war. A war of unknown proportions, but nonetheless a war. A young 19, or 20, or 21 year old man signs up to help fight. Fight in a war over another mans original ideal. Now even if that man symapathyses with this man's ideals, they were or may not originally be their own.

So anyways he signs up and put his life on the line, literrally a line (in some countries), but he signs his life away. No matter how long he stays in. If he retires or does a short term career out of it. IT sticks to him forever. It makes an imprint on this man forever. To something as major as him living his life in a millitary fashion for the rest of his life, to him just having memories of his time serving. It can even imprint on him, to the point where he feels that he is no longer normal but set apart. Maybe that is way he calls the normal people "Civilians". Anywho, these things may run through his mind, they may not, but I can garuntee, im not the only one that that happens to. So he thinks in his mind, sometimes everyday, that he may soon go to war. War!?! Something that is inherently not pretty, where people die, where people kill each other over iideals. One side is fighting because of this and the other that, but they both feel they are right, and maybe both side are. But not likely. And this young man is caught in the middle of it. Each ideal is written on every piece of artillery that flies overhead, and every piece that flies in heads. And that man could be afraid of getting that ideal stuck in his head. May he fight on a ship or behind sandbags. Ships can get blown up too. He could die, for another man or woman, and what would he have to show for it. What a dead body somebody may not recognize or never to be found. Or even maybe a missing leg. Even losing most of your fingers due to a freak accident. And you know what people will say about you? ......?!? They could use past tense, and that actually could bother the young man.
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(This is me trying to make sense of the ways of the world, or at least America, or just my world.)

Ok, from the time Adam and Eve. God instilled the responsibilities of working the fields in men. Making sure sweat falls from his brow. Making sure he breaks his back for the sake of work, why because he is supposed to take care of himself and or his family. Family... huh. A man is supposed to take care of his family, by (just a rundown of a couple of things) providing shelter, food, warmth, clothing, security, money. That is just a couple of things. I believe the majority of the workforce in America is held up by men. It just seems to be that way. At least I know on my ship there are more males than females. We outnumber them... badly. But my point is that. In America more men work and women stay home. In America its expected of the man to be the bread- winner of the family. And if he is not then people will judge. I can't look anybody in the eye if they were to say they would not judge him becuase deep down that person thinks negative of that man. At some point of time, that person who would make that comment will judge that man that doesn't work. Is that right, I don't know.... I don't know one man that comes home from work and does not like coming home to a clean house and hot food. After working in a place all day long and making money and putting up with the work place, hearing the local gossip about him or somebody else around the watercooler. He wants to come home to those things. It would be extremely nice and heartwarming. NOW, before you start to judge my words and me, think about this. If the person who stays at home and does not work should take care of the homefront. Even if the man is the one who is at home by himself. Even he should take care of the house. Have dinner ready (maybe if you have food in your house), have clean home ( it don't really take a lot of money to clean your filthy house), have everything looking nice. I mean if you sit at home all day then do something with yourself. And that lame excuse "I get tired of cleaning this house, I clean it up and the next day it messy again." Well do you honestly think your partner, may it be your husband or your wife, likes to go back to the same place everyday, dealing with those same people. Hearing the same jabs and gossip around the local watercooler. Fuck no!!! They are the ones dealing with the assholes and punk-bitches on a daily basis. But yet you gripe about cleaning a house, and cooking some punk-ass food. I hate those people who say "Oh, we shouldn't (im using "we" in a gender neutral sense) have to do that, were not slaves to do your bidding, so don't treat us like it." Man Fuck that shit. You sit on your ass all day and piss and moan when you have to do a little work. So, I guess you like having a messy house and a husband or wife who is hungry come home after working for the day. Maybe thats why your relationship is only at the level it is at. Honestly do you like coming home to a clean house with dinner on the table or cooking. I know I would and women you would love it too.
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I think I am ranting more about my life than in general. But I am still talking about those people who deal with those issues with their partner.
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This last thing here is about me.
to many times I feel like a fucking slave. Im black and cuban. So, don't even look at it like that. But I am tired of going to work, and slaving for those fuck-heads and coming back here and still feeling like a slave. I feel like im being used. Just for the benefits the military gives me. Only because im married. I hate that shit. I do feel like im being taken adavantaged of sometimes and it hurts and it makes me angry and confused. I think that is why I have become a more hateful and spiteful person.
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God, help me not be like that.


These are my thought in text.


Edited by: xoshi64 at: 11/16/06 11:24 pm
Hawthorne of Rathelle
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(11/17/06 8:51 am)
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Re: My thoughts in text

*hugs*

X-oshi, are you gonna be okay? It sounds like you're having a real tough time about it lately. And that just sucks. The military sounds like a really tough road to follow. Currently my boyfriend is considering enlistiing. We've had a lot of arguments, but he's the only one working right now. So I fel like its his choice to make.

*hugs again*

Be strong, and have faith in yourself. You're a good person and that will shine through in the end.

Merciah
Merciah Forigaln
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Karrody de`Champion
AKA Scarey Guy

Posts: 4271
(11/28/06 4:08 pm)
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Re: My thoughts in text
I know where you're coming from bro. I've been there and went through that. May you persevere where I didn't, do bettere then me where I succeeded, and I wish the best to you. You know that if you ever need anything, you can always call me. Anything at all. Forever we stick together. That's one thing I am sure friends can always agree on.




This is where I put more of my random thoughts. :)

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GideonThulann
Jun-Bo Tsuen
The Shih. Balance or Death.

Posts: 1992
(11/28/06 4:59 pm)
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Re: My thoughts in text
Amen *Nods to merciah as he agrees with him.*

belovedstranger1ruby
Stella Midnight
MHS's resident star gazer

Posts: 234
(12/8/06 6:56 am)
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Re: My thoughts in text
hope no one minds if i add a bit of reflection on what Xoshi has said

War deeply bothers me. The idea of a Just War is one i try to look at, and I will be honest, I have no intrest in joining the military. I think those that do (and have done so actully thinking in through, not like the 14 year olds who signed up for WWI and WWII) are braver men and women then me. But then, most people are more brave them me.

I think you have a lot of really interesting things to say. I feel espesialy strongly about the whole stay home mom/dad. My parents both work, but my dad spent 4 years at home trying to get a buisness up and going (it's up and running now. If you come to aus and want in home care for the elderly, call my dad). I also think most women (and men) who have such parents will be more accepting if the man is not the bread winner of the family, but agree that the view is a common one...

*hugs*

The feeling that someone has taken advantage of you is a bad one, well at least for me it was, and by the sentiments you expressed it is for you too. I'm a little lost on the militay thing, but if you feel you're being done over, then that is (in lamemans terms) bad *hugs again*

Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us

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