Out but still not happy
I'll try to keep this short.
Basically, I have recently told 5 of my closest friends that I am very confused about my sexuality. This is the truth, I absolutely don't have a clue and I don't want to rush myself into a decision.
But instead of feeling the expected 'lift off of my shoulders'. today I have been feeling exceedingly down, and unsure whether or not I should have told them, even though talking about it with someone will have made it easier.
I also am reluctant to tell another of my close friends, due to some homophobic comments he has made in the past, and the simple reason that I am unsure how he would react. This bothers me, as I feel as though I am leaving him out. But also, I want to experiment when i go out to bars/clubs etc. and I that is not how I want him to discover my 'other side',
Has anybody please got any reasons for why I feel like this, or any tips?
The reason that u feel down could possibly because you feel that you are letting your mate down by not telling him, or it could possibly becuase you have told them before you are shore about your sexuality.
Re: Thanks
Don't let being unsure about your sexuality get you down. Despite what some people think, your sexuality doesn't define you as a person. If you're kind, caring and a nice person, your sexuality is kind of a side issue. Some people go their whole lives being unsure, some quite happy with it, and others letting it dominate their lives.
I've never really believed in 100% gay or 100% straight anyway - I think we are the sum of a whole heap of different emotions, and attraction to someone is just a part of that happy little bundle.
Be happy being yourself, and let your sexuality come naturally. I hope that makes sense! I know what I mean
Good luck